What I Need... (GxG)

Do You Dirty

I was up before Hayley today because I knew if I told her what I was going to do today she would talk me out of it. Also things between Hayley and I have been... weird lately and I don't want to get into any of that till I figure out what is happening with Kehlani and I.

I put on a comfy sweater and leggings and threw my hair into a quick bun. I left a note by Hayley, who was sound asleep before slipping out the door.

The brisk air that hit me was very welcomed, every hair on me was on edge and had to sit on my hand to keep them from shaking. I waited a week before going to Kehlani's because I needed to figure out what I was going to say and what I wanted. Even though it was our first fight, even before than I could been the ledge Kehlani and I were on. So terrified of losing each other that we would ignore the problems that were rising.

Like my incapability to fully trust her and her fear of letting herself go with me. I knew that I wanted to be with her, but I didn't want us to crash in burn. Which is what would eventually happen, we were too blindly in love with each other . If Kehlani feels for me as much as I feel for her then we could work this out.

If.

I've been avoiding the "what if's" because I can't imagine it ending like this with her. Try to imagine breathing without oxygen. It doesn't make sense.

I was shaken from my thoughts by a tap on my shoulder. The bus was here. A friendly man beside me asked if I was getting on.

I nodded and got on the bus finding a seat on the back of the bus. The day was gloomy and seemed rather foreboding. My mother always told me that whenever you were feeling an overwhelming amount of emotions, it was best to write them down so I pulled out my notepad and penned an open letter to Kehlani while the city passed me by

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Hey y'all this is definitely just a filler chapter. I'm thinking of ending this book in a couple of chapters and I'm going to work on my official book. So if you are reading this , THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING THIS FAR! This was amazing writing experience for me and I mostly definitely gonna write more on here, just maybe short stories and poetry books, that can stand alone because I'm real busy.

Still some more chapters to go so this isn't goodbye, just yet!

Meanwhile leave some thoughts for a short story or theme for a poetry book and I can start preparing new stuff for you guys!!

How do you think this meeting with Kehlani and Drew is going to go??

NC