Scars

Chapter 3

[ A week later ]

{Mei's P.O.V}

It's been awhile since the funeral. Mother sat at the table, face buried in her arms. She was quietly sobbing, while holding her beer. This wasn't right.

The council members found out what happened with our family and suggested that I should take a rest. Of course, I refused. I took what ever paperwork I could from the office, making sure I kept myself busy. I set up a table and sat down.

The stack of paper was towering above me. I felt something heavy pressing against my chest. It ached from the unknown weight, beginning to weigh more.  I ignored the feeling and started signing the stack. This had to be because of me. I kept working until there was barley any light coming through the window. It was late.

But I still signed my name on every single one of those damn sheets.  Until I signed it on every thing without noticing.  Until I realized it was because of me, my stupidity, my ignorance.

I saw that I scribbled my name onto the table. 

Mei Aihara. 

My hands trembled a little.  I'm the cause of all of this.  I'm the one who brought my hatred and sadness into this family.  I teared the Okogi's apart and it was all my fault.  I was guilty for all of these unfortunate events occurring in their lives.  Sobs ripped out of my mouth as tears began to roll down my cheeks. 

"If I didn't come here,  if I didn't even pick Sara, and...If..I gave Yuzu all my time..Then maybe she would still be here with me.." 

I flipped the table and sent contracts flying around me.  My signature surrounded me, making my physical being drop.  This can't just end..

I slowly walked over to the bed, that was meant for two. 

Pause. 

I punched the wall, leaving a hole.  My knuckles turned red quickly. 

I crawled next to Yuzu's pillow and hugged it.  It still had her scent.  But also had a hint of blood.  Though, it affected me the same way her presence did.  My heart fluttered a little.  I squeezed her pillow tighter.  Her smile, her eyes, gosh, everything about Yuzu is amazing. 

She's gone now.

Yuzu is gone.

She'll never come back.

I cried into the white-cushion, images appearing of  Yuzu jumping off.  They're burned into my memory and no matter how much I try to erase them, the thought of  Yuzu always brings back that incident. 

The times we've spent together, are ones that I will always cherish.  Now that she's diseased, how am I ever going to be happy again? I broke her and now Yuzu is dead because of me.

My eyes red and filled with regret. Face hot with resentment.

She left us. On purpose!

Her last words haunted me, drowning myself in my thoughts. I kept pounding the mattress.  How can I live with myself now? 

Come back.

Please.

I won't leave your side ever again.

I promise you with all my heart.

Just return to me. 

Because now I know that I'll never be the same without you.

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Yuzu!  I can't live on anymore.  I'm lost again.  I need someone to guide me out of this dark and empty void.  So why can't that anonymous person just save me already? 

Load me.

This fan fiction doesn't make sense anymore. 

Yuzu's dead and gone.  There is no trace of her living being anymore.  Just me and the room filled with choked cries. 

Just me.

Just me.

Just Mei.

Just myself.

Just Monika.

But who is Monika?