the rain is heavy
strong does the wing blow
the clouds are heavy with the rain
just like i am with the pain
and then it rains
blood on my arm
and then it stops
to carry on
my blood beats the rhythm of the rain
drops crash to the ground
just like me during the pain
then my wounds pulses
in time with my heart
i know everyone repulses
but they won't know
they never do
i should not cut
i should not bleed
the cuts are shallow but it's still not good enough!
it's not deep enough!
i should stop cutting with a knife
but knives are used to cut anything
so why not my skin?
i taste my blood
so sweet and bitter
i want to taste more
it makes me feel better
it makes me feel
so why can't i hurt myself
i want to bleed
to kill myself
to stop the pain
and my stealth
no longer hiding will i be
my scars would no longer bleed
i will just scream
the silence I've held for so long
i'm fine though
i always am
i love you
but you don't love me back
i hate that i love you
but it's hard to ignore
it's real love
but you can't see me
what i truly used to be
i am sad
because you will never know me
not the real me
but i am glad
my end is near and to you i write this song
so please cheer
to the happy moments i thought i'd bring
but this is all a fantasy
not even you will know what i see
and although i love you
you hurt me too
that pain won't go away
and although i don't cry right now
doesn't mean i never cry
because you are the reason to why i cry
that is the reason i choose to die
