the night sky
so bright so beautiful
the stars so bright
against the night
no secrets no lies
then shadows follow me
i run
i try so hard to escape
it's grasp
a looming shape
behind me
i gasp
a cold moment
paralyzed in shock
happened in an instant
a voice shattered the ice
i scream
until i cannot breathe
dark passengers
right then and there
i had truly tasted
the voices of monsters
trapped in a snare
of caged pain
and painful blame
the monsters extinguished my dying flame
then blood will pour and stain
a tainted mark
upon my heart
engraved within my soul
and unforgotten in my head
monster hide under my bed
blood will taint those empty wrists
paint those clenched fists
flow out of empty eyes
fill up with endless lies
feed on helpless cries
memories that taint every moment,
every person i see.
i trust nobody.
if you could see the haunting days
monstrous nights
triggering words
insecure thoughts
you would scream
and hope to never see daylight
so do not say
that i'm the monster
do not misunderstand
if you do not know
do not ask
if you do not like the answers
do not speak
if you do not know what to say
don't try to comfort me
i'm beyond help
never asked for it
never wanted it
never asked you to sympathize
you do not know anything about me
so don't try
leave me be
and kill your stupid curiosity
because no one can understand me
i am the sky
not that you can see
and you must beware
i am a forest
i am a bear
and talking to me
will make you regret coming here
do not ask questions
do not talk
you don't know anything
about me
so please just
SHHH.