Finding Hope ~ [Voltron WA 2018]

Chapter 18: I Was Just a Toy

Silence... all that could be heard was the squeaking of the space mice.

Shiro couldn't believe that he let her go, that he gave her the 'ok' to go find Matt alone.

Pidge couldn't believe what they had filled her in on... she can't believe that she came so close to death multiple times.

She had asked about how she had got from the kitchen to the med-bay... and no one as yet to speak up.

"Pidge." Shiro began while rubbing the back of his neck " As we said earlier it was a panic attack, you freaked out then lost consciousness" He finished eyeing Matt.

Pidge let her eyes shift from her brother to her leader of several ticks.

"Something's off," she thought to herself

"Let it be my paladin, it's for the best" her loins words wash through her like a summer breeze that warmed her heart.

She silently nodded.

"Please excuse me," She said while standing and without another word, she left.

Shiro let out a massive sigh of either relief or stress.

"She shouldn't be alone." He said while standing.

"I'll go talk with her"

As Shiro walked down the hallway, he let his thoughts wander

Only if I told her to wait, tell Keith returned from his blades mission or if I just went with her or sent Hunk, heck even Lance; she shouldn't have been alone" he scolded himself

"Do not blame yourself, you know Greens paladin, she would have gone anyway" he nodded at black words before stopping in his tracks

"How are we communicating?" He wondered aloud

He heard the black lion laugh a deep heartwarming laugh.

"We are still linked together as I said before my paladin, a link that can only be cut by death, physical death or spiritual death." Was the soothing replay

"So with Zarkon?" He questioned walking again.

"Our link ran deep, but eventually his spirit cracked deeply, and the link was broken, I no longer feel him, and he no longer feels me... he is dead to me" she finished sadness's in her answered

Shiro could feel both deep love and hate towards the former Galra emperor.

He entered the green loins hanger, he knew she was in there black had confirmed it.

The door opened with a deep whoosh and at first, he didn't know where she was, tell he heard her muffled crying. He knew where she was.

He approached the Green lion and began climbing, higher and higher till he saw the small girl sitting between the eyes of her loin, knees pulled close to her chest, her head barred in her knees.

"Hey"

She jumped

"Sorry didn't mean to scare you. Katie are you ok?"

"How do you do it?" She questioned quietly.

"Do what?"

"Deal with the pain, with the memory's, the fact that you were used as an experiment for enjoyment!" She was standing now hands to her head as if she had a bad headache. "Grr, Shiro I was a toy, I wasn't a person it did matter if I lived or died what mattered was that I suffered!" She cried

She was facing away from him. As he cut her off

"Hey, hey settle down."

She wiped around slipping on the slick surface, Shiro reached out and steadied her before she could fall.

"Wow wow wow, settle down." She was crying against his chest now.

"I know it's hard, and no it's not fair, but we have to keep moving forward. Letting that pain control us allows the Galra to win, Katie don't let them win." He replied squeezing her a little.

There was a soft rumble from underneath their feet as the Green loin purred in agreement.

He stood there rubbing her back until her breathing steadied and her knees buckled

"Wow, someone needs some rest," he said more to himself than anyone else. He picked her up bridal style, and Green put her head to the ground making it easier on him.

He walked to her room. He looked down at the sleeping girl in his arms he had to look away as images of the bloody paladin hunted him of the time of her rescue.

When he reached her room, he settled her down into her bed.

As he turned to leave, she grabbed his arm, fear in her eyes.

"Stay" She whispered very quietly

He nodded and sat on the floor next to her bed and watch as she drifted to sleep.

He knew it was almost night cycle, so he grabbed an extra pillow and blanket from her bed and laid down on the floor next to the bed and quickly fell asleep.