I'm stuck between trying to live my life, and trying to run from it.
The ever-growing beautiful chaos is both intriguing and horrifying.
Should I try to keep my head above water? Or, is it just easier to let myself drown?
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"Addie, I'm not gonna tell you again... GET UP!" My mom shouts from my bedroom doorway.
"But... you literally just told me again." I say sarcastically, before sitting up in bed and smirking at my mother's glare.
"Get dressed and come downstairs, we've got a surprise for you, but if you keep the attitude up I may just return it." She says, and my eyes widen.
"You. Did. NOT!" I shout with a smile. "You got me a puppy!" I jump out of bed and rush over to hug my mom.
"No. I didn't get you a puppy." She deadpans. "Now get ready and let's go. Don't want to be late for your first day as a senior!" She sings as she heads down the stairs.
I grin and hurriedly rush over to my bathroom, quickly flinging my sleep clothes to the floor and getting into the steaming hot shower.
Once I'm finished, I step out and grab my toothbrush after wrapping my purple towel around my body.
"Hello beautiful." I smile to myself through the mirror once my teeth are properly clean.
I reach over, and grab my pair of dark purple glasses. The same glasses Shane got me many months ago after a certain someone broke mine.
I cringe at the thought of Jared Winston.
I shake the thoughts away and remember what JoAnn told me, "Inhale the future, exhale the past."
I still see her, but instead of every week, it's every other week. I told my mom I was ready to be on my own, and that I didn't need to see JoAnn anymore, but she insisted that I keep my appointments during the new school year.
I turn around and as I prepare to see the scale sitting on the floor staring up at me, I smile as I remember that I threw it out a couple months ago. JoAnn said I needed to stop relying so heavily on scales, and focus more on my inner health. She said the scale is just a reminder of how caught up I was in the darkness, and that throwing it away, shows how bright I shine now in the light.
Yeah, JoAnn is pretty cliché. However her techniques and words of wisdom really help me, and I will be forever grateful for how much she has helped me overcome.
I exit my bathroom and walk over to my closet, deciding on what to wear for my first day.
Shaking my head at everything I pick up, I reach over to my bedside table and pick up my cell phone.
"Hello?"
"Angie? Great. I need your help, ASAP." I say as I hear her yawn.
"With?" She sighs.
"I don't know what to wear today." I say, and I can hear her snort.
"Just pick one of the new outfits we bought the other day. The high-waisted skinny jeans and one of the graphic crop tops."
