MY Pregnancy

May 11, 2014: Mother's DAY Surprise

It's been six long days since I've noticed the changes my bodies been going through. It was Mother's Day and if course I had to send a beautiful message to all of the people in my life. Besides it being that day, within these six days my body has really been different. I swear I've peed at least six times in one hour that's a lot of piss if you ask me. My breast have actually become even more squishier then before and my hips gotten a little wider. I'm 5'8 and I'm very slim so I know what my body used to look like, but now its just changing a lil too much. I thought about a lot throughout the day, and when Jay pointed out that there could be a possibility that I could be pregnant I got a little scared. My thoughts were so clouded that I couldn't even hear my phone going off. It was a number I didn't know so I didn't answer.

Around 11:30pm, I told Jay that we gotta go to the store. He was against it at first because we just came from Belle Glade, and wondered why I didn't think about it before.

I just really needed him to understand how spooked out I am about it all the changes. On our way to CVS, I decided to look up pregnancy symptoms; I knew about most of them but I just needed to know were there any other signs, I could've missed. He told me to wait in the car so he can go get them himself, but I found it a lil funny that a dude would prefer to go in alone. A few minutes or so later he came back out with no bag insight. I looked at him like where is it, and before I could ask he pulled out two pregnancy tests out of his pockets. I knew right then why he wanted me to stay in the car.

"What?" He asked, while handing me the two tests.

"You know what." I stated getting a little irritated.

"Baby you should know by now that I hate paying more then I should for anything." He said trying to let it go.

"I do know that but that shit ain't cool, what if you would've gotten caught?" I questioned.

"You of all people know how careful I am when it comes to that." He stated.

"That doesn't make it any betta, like you went to prison for 2 years for the same dumb shit. Like do you really wanna risk yo freedom, and go back for stealing small things?" I asked him getting pissed.

"You know I don't want that." He admitted.

"Then why do you constantly do it?" I needed to know. He never answered my question he just looked away and paid attention to the road.

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When we finally arrived home, I had to piss, so I just decided to take them now. I went in the restroom, and handled my business. I think the waiting made me even more nervous then taking the actual test itself. When I started to notice a dark blue horizontal line in the big circle I got excited. Then when I was about to throw them away, I noticed another light blue vertical line behind the other line. I didn't understand this damn test for nothing. I wish I had a digital damn test, its a lot easier, so I called Jay, to get his opinion. With no luck he didn't understand it either, well that's just great I thought to myself.

Jays sister Tee, came out of her room and I told her what was going on.

"That's why I dont get them cheap shits.' She laughed. 'Kia please dont be in the same predicament that I'm in." she said.

"I'm honestly not trying to be." I told her dead seriously.

"I have a clear blue test and its digital if you wanna use it." She offered.

"Please." I said anxiously. Tee went to her room and got the test for me.

"It's best to take them first thing in the morning so don't take it tonight." She informed.

"Okay and thanks." I said while heading back to my room. I didnt want to be pregnant, hell I have so much I could be doing, but if I am, it is what it is.