MY Pregnancy

June 10-12, 2014: The heartbeat magic

Today was very exciting but also pain at the same time. This morning I started feeling these extremely painful cramps, so I called my aunt Buffy. She told me to put my knees up to my chest, and sit in a cushioned chair. I thought she was crazy as hell... like what the hell is that supposed to do, and it was even worse that I was at work. I did as was told and it only helped a little bit. One of the administrators named Trina (my bosses second daughter) found me and told me to go lay down. I did just that. I had just clocked back in... good I thought I'd get paid for being in pain, LOL I thought to myself.

It wasn't until about an hour or so later that I started to feel better, so I decided to get up, and head back to the class where I normally work at. My co worker and friend Tanieka, was dancing with some of the kids to some song I remembered from that movie RIO. She asked was I feeling better and I said yea, my favorite lil munchkin came, up to me and grabbed my legs. His name was Major. He is sweet as ever and he just turned one. I honestly do love my job, and I even bring it home sometimes, literally.

Before I headed to leave work I had to go see my home girl Candace aka Candy Crush, Candy Apple, Cotton Candy... Lol. Anyways my lil boo Jaylen was sittin in the high chair eatin some apples. He looked at me and started smiling at me. I swear this boy act like I'm his mama.. Its the cutest thing to. Whenever his mom comes to pick him up and take him home he run to me, and of course I pick him up. I knew I was gonna ha e a good day after that moment. And I did.

Nothing happed the 11th.

Sooooo...

Sunday, June 12, 2014.

It was about 10pm and I was having the same kinds of pains that I had the other day, so I told Jay to take me to the E.R. at Palm West Hospital. I called and told my dad and my Nana, and my aunt buffy and my momma. They all asked the same question "have u seen any blood?" And no I haven't so I knew it couldn't be a miscarriage. I was still scared. Thursday I just turned seven weeks, and with that week approaching, I read that I could be able to hear my munchkins heartbeat. As we headed into the E.R., I seen these pregnant ladies with big ass watermelon stomachs, I smiled because I couldn't wait for that to be me. After I was registered, about five minutes later I was called to the back. The R.N. checked my vitals and asked me why I'm here. I explained to her that I was seven weeks pregnant, and have been experiencing very sharp pains. She asked the same question as my family and I informed her no. She asked if Jay was the baby's father, and I scowled at her ass... his response was

"Hell I hope so, I been the only one in that cootchie.... Well as far as I know." He smirked at me and flinched cuz he knew I was finna smack his ass. But I had to laugh. The R.N. laughed too.

"So far y'all has been my FAVORITE patients of the day." She said simply with a genuine smile.

I couldn't answer back cuz I felt another sharp pain, and she told us to follow her, she was about to push me in the wheelchair, but Jay stopped her and said he got it. She put us in the short stay room and some lady came in with a machine about my info. About 20 minutes later, another few ladies came, and OBGYN, her assistant and another nurse. The doctor was a nigga, this lady had a few golds in her mouth. She told me to open my legs and I did just that. She placed to fingers at my opening, and I almost kicked her ass. That shit hurt. She said "pregnancy discharge, that's normal, and your cervix is closed, I'm gonna send u to the ultrasound tech to see if there's something seriously wrong ok?" I just simply nodded. About midnight this very pretty short white woman came in the room told me she was taking us to the ultrasound room. I got mad excited, I was hoping she'd let me hear the heartbeat. Yes I know they not supposed to do it, but I was hopeful. So she was having a full blown convo with Jay and I and she asked me to lay on the bed. After she put that very worm lubricant gel on my tummy we began. She showed us the little, peanut sized baby, and said "there you are", and turned the monitor towards me and Jay. He was cheesin hella hard at me. I cant lie though I was excited myself. I mean after all this is my first pregnancy EVER! He went through this before. After she took a few pictures, of him, (the baby), I just had to ask. "Can I please hear the heartbeat." She said "I'm not supposed to."

My heart dropped, and I guess she understood, cuz I heard it. It was so magical. It was just beautiful and it was a strong one. A single tear escaped my right eye, and I couldn't help but smile and tell her thank you. I think I said it too much, cuz Jay said "okay she gets it dang." I instantly stopped smiling and got angry. Like how the fuck can u just not be excited about that. So I just ignored him.

After she cleaned my tummy off and we were situated back in the room, my Nana called Jay, on the phone. The doctor came back in at about 1:15 and told us we could go home. She explained to me that it was just the pregnancy, and that my uterus is expanding. She told me to take Tylenol, if the pain continues. I thanked her and after we got the release forms we headed home and I called everyone and told them what occurred. It wasn't until the heartbeat magic, that I realized "I'm finna be somebody's mama."