Joshua X Reader

Chapter 21

(Y/n)'s POV
I quietly went out of my room to put away my used dishes Into the sink.
Freezing as I placed my left hand on the person's arms that circled around my waist as my right hand rested on the counter.
My eyes wide as someone back hugged me.
"have you been here the whole time?" A voice I was hoping to not hear, whispered and I gulped.
"N-no. Of course not" I replied back.
"you have been.. it's been almost 5 days" he sighed out softly as he bent down to rest his head in the crook of my neck.
"I-I.." I started. Not knowing what to say. My heart beating fast.
And before I knew it, I was turned around, my lower back pressed against the edge of the counter as something warm landed on my lips. My eyes closed before I slowly opened them.
Joshua who had his eyes closed was holding my waist firmly but gently as he kissed me.
Soon he backed away. His hands still on my waist as he didn't dare look me in the eye.
"don't ignore me like that ever again" he whispered
"I love you.. Jae just-" before he could continue what he was saying, I harshly removed his hands from my waist. Quickly walking away as I felt hurt and broken.
"w-Wait! (Y/n)!" He said chasing after me but before he could actually get to me. I slammed the bedroom door in his face.
I held back my tears, gathering my things and placing them in my bag. Grabbing a piece of paper and writing Woozi a note.
"I'm not Jae" I mumbled sadly as I wiped my eyes. Opening a window as my bag rested on my back.
"Fucking steal my first kiss when your thinking of someone.. that's cruel" I mumbled crying as I tried to stop myself. Going back over towards the door, opening it and looking at Joshua who seemed to have been looking desperate for me to come out.
Though we only had eye contact for a second before I pushed past him.
"Just leave me the hell alone Joshua. I'm done" I said shaking my head at him in disbelief.
Walking over towards the sleeping Woozi with the note in my hand. Crumpling it up as I heard Joshua following me soon as he called my name.
"Just stay away from me!" I yelled throwing the paper at him. Seeing as I didn't write anything on it anyways.
"Woozi" I said shaking him after I yelled at Joshua.
"whaaaat?" He groaned.
"Where's my keys? I'm leaving. Thank you for taking care of me" i said shakily and he seemed to shoot up. Looking at me then looking around as his eyes landed on Joshua. His mouth opening in disbelief.
"oh" he seemed to breathe out before standing up and reaching his hand into his front left pocket.
"a-Are you really gonna be ok though" he asked and I nodded.
"I will not stay any were near him" I said pointing at Joshua who looked hurt.
"I'm 19 and I am sure. I can take care of myself" I told Woozi as he soon took out his hand from his pocket. Hesitantly giving me my car keys back as I bowed to him.
"(Y/n), don't. Please just listen to me" Joshua said desperately.
"Go to hell Joshua" I told him before going over to the front door. Putting in my shoes.
"please" he pleaded and I looked back at him. My eyes full of tears.
"What?! What is so important that I need to listen to you Huh?!" I cried out.
"I didn't mean what happened" he said slowly.
"You mean leaving me when we were kids and just kissing me and saying that you love Jae? Because you hate me? That's why you left right? No, Yea. I totally understand Joshua. I'm not fucking important in your god damn life, so just leave me alone." I said as my tears fell. Wiping them as Joshua and Woozi just stood there.
Joshua staring at me with sad and hurt eyes.
Opening the door to the garage and slamming it shut.
Unlocking my car as I got in, Woozi soon coming out and stopping me from closing my car door as I started up my car.
"where are you going?" Woozi asked worriedly.
"Back to my house" I told him as I wiped my eyes.
"s-stay safe then. I'll visit you tomorrow and when I have time" he said and I stayed silent. Not nodding or anything. Just staring at the steering wheel until he kissed the side of my forehead like we always did to each other when we were kids and such.
"be safe, don't do anything stupid" he said softly before closing my car door. Leaving me to open the garage door as I blinked and soon left as I placed my bag on the passenger seat.
Heading back to my house that I shared with Joshua. Or now used to.
I parked on the driveway, taking out my keys and bag as I then locked my car and went to the front door of the house. Unlocking it and going inside only to lock the door again and placing my things down on the dining table.
Getting two luggage's from the storage room in the backyard and bringing them inside. 
Starting to pack my stuff in my room.
"Namjoon.." I said into the phone as he had answered. It was late at night, like literally 2 pm but I knew he would be in his office since it was a Tuesday but now Wednesday.
"I'm leaving Korea.. don't tell anyone. I swear. I just need time. I'll be working somewhere else for the time being" I told him as I packed some clothes, a few photos, my laptop and some other important things like toiletries and a couple shoes.
"Yes. I'll be fine... I will keep in touch. Or try to if it makes you happy" I said over the phone as I sniffled a bit.
"Yea ok. Bye. Ill bring the papers to your office tomorrow" I said before hanging up. Shoving the now packed suitcase in my closet as I also did so to the half packed suitcase.
Lying down on my bed as I waited for the morning to come.