Saving Lilly Leblanc / A Bratayley Fanfiction

7- innocent?

The next day-

I have another 8 hour masterclass this time for pointe. I love ballet because it makes me feel in control. Tomorrow is the first court date and after a lot of thinking throughout warm ups I have come to thought that my mom is innocent. I was mad at her. She did terrible things but the only thing she didn't do was hurt me physically, She never left me in bad conditions. She cared about me. She caused me emotional damage so i wanted to hurt her but now I have to control what is right because my mom isn't a bad person. 

Hope was comforting me on the floor while we stretched and prepared our shoes for a long class. "It's gonna be okay Lilly, you're practically an over night sensation." She said. Natalia joined in. "Quite impressive how you took this all but sucks that you're the bum compared to your sister." She said. Natalia was right but you don't just say that. I didn't want to fight so i just said. "Shut up, don't act like you're not a "bum" compared to me." I said. Maybe a little self centered..

 after putting band-aids on my feet I lined my toe pads with ripped up cotton balls where I had blisters. I began cutting the loose threads off of my shoes and wiped them with a wipe. "No need to make a new pointe shoe Lilly, it's just a class." My teacher said." I love feeling in control like i said before. In ballet it's my only place to be perfect. The perfect shoe means the perfect foot and the perfect foot means the perfect technique and the perfect technique means the perfect dance and the perfect dance means the perfect class and the perfect class means a perfect performance and a perfect performance means a perfect score and a perfect score means everything is perfect and I'm doing everything right. And that's all I need to feel right now.

"Alright let's start with our pas de bouree variation in tempo to get us warmed up." Miss Kim said. She turned on a fast music piece which went through my head. And replayed everything in my head. 

Suddenly it was like timed stopped. And I froze. "You're being too tense Lills," Caleb said. I gave him a hug. "Thank god you're back" I said. "Stop putting too much pressure on yourself. If you spend too much time worrying about all of this drama and trying to be perfect you'll die without really living a life. Live at the moment and enjoy every second." He said. "Thank you Caleb. I really miss you." I said. "I miss you too little sis. I'll see you soon.' He faded away.

Why am I living like this? I could be out there enjoying life and saving my mom. But dance makes me happy.

SHORT CHAPTER!!! next chapter is the court date!! Stay tuned for more!!