Im trying really hard
Thats what i wanna tell you
I wanna shout it from the roof top
And put it in your head
I wanna help you start to grow
And learn whats real
And not have to hear the crazy things you act on
Its been almost two years
And nothing has changed
I grew into who you always wanted to be
And life cant tell you how sad that makes me
And how badly i wanted you to save me
I begged and pleaded
And prayed for the answers
I asked everyone and every god
What went wrong in nature
Was it me all along
Or the things you took
The pain killers
Is that what made your head
Turn into a fictional book?
I remember everytime i cried in your arms
And begged for the day
When we could finally fix each other
And you could save the day
But im almost grown up
And your still so far away
And sometimes i cant help but wish
I could see you at 15 before that gosh darn wish
Before you became this way
Before they called you crazy
I wish for one talk
That isnt gonna kill me
I wish i could see you
16 years ago
When you were just like me
And ask you
Are you finally proud of me?
I have the grades you wanted me to
The mind of your age
The strength mentally of an ox
And damn i wish you were the same
Its hard to even process
What went wrong
Cause i think of it everyday
I just wanted to know you
Before you told me the lies
Before all those guys
Came into our lives
Cause they took the only one i asked for
And broke her in front of my eyes
You were the strongest one i knew
And i had to see you cry
After they made you black and blue
And even then i could barley tell you i loved you
I wish i could fix this
And tell you the truth
I really do love you
I promise you this
Even when i dont call
Your on my mind
It hurts me worse
But i just have to lie
But the one thing i always wanted to hear
You finally said
You whispered to the phone
I proud of what you did..
And after we hung up
I cried for days
The words i never heard
From you were told today
I just wish i couldve heard it before that day..
