Last First Kiss

Chapter 24:)

            It has been about a week since my date with Liam, Amanda and Alyssa will be joining us inSan Diegotomorrow morning and we’re all excited. This whole week I have been received more hate, some fans were actually really nice and I tried to reply to those but it seems like most fans could care less if I died. I still haven’t told Liam about the hate on twitter but I told Zayn,Eleanor, Amanda and Alyssa, Eleanor told me it usually doesn’t last that long but you will always have haters, but it doesn’t even seem like its easing up. The hate is even starting to come in between Liams and I’s relationship, I don’t want to be seen in public with him anymore so I never let him near me or go out anywhere, I know he knows somethings up and its really not like him not to ask but im guessing he’s just letting me figure it out.

            I’ve been hanging out with Zayn all week because he’s been helping me with the hate and I can see its making Liam mad that im ignoring him and being with Zayn but Zayns helping me so he’s going to have to swallow his pride and let me hang out with my best friend. Right now we are in our tour bus driving toCaliforniaand let me tell you it is a long drive fromChicagotoCalifornia! I’ve been pretty much in my bunk the whole time just watching youtube videos. I was currently watching Liams friend Maz blog when I heard someone walk in.

“what are you laughing at Brook” Zayn said getting into his bunk across from me. I took my headphones out of ears and paused one of Maz’s story time.

“nothing just watching one of Maz’s videos” I sat up because I knew he would want to talk to me about how Im doing and stuff.

“oh I love that man, he’s hilarious” I just nodded my head waiting for him to tell me why he came up here. “um okay well how are you doing”

“im fine, haters are still hating but I’ll get over it” I bit my lip something I always do when im lying.

“really, then why are you biting your lip” damn he knows me to well

“the truth” he gets up and sits next to me on Liam and I’s bed and says he wants the truth “okay the truth is the hate is killing me, im scared to even go outside this bus because of the haters on the street and if they see Liam and I together I will thousands of hate messages on twitter. And I know im hurting Liam because hes confused and wants to help but he doesn’t know how and he doesn’t even know about the hate on twitter, I mean he probably knows I am getting hate but he doesn’t know the degree and im scared to tell him because he will get worried and he is already worried enough, he shouldn’t have to worry about me and either should you, I never would have told you if you didn’t catch on why I was sad everytime I checked twitter. And this hate reminds me of the hate from my old school and it feels like a knife going through my chest everytime I read another mention. I know im not good enough or pretty enough or skinny enough or talented enough or” I was full on crying into Zayns shoulder when he cut me off

“Brook don’t say that you are good enough for all of us and you’re gorgeous you silly child the first time we all met you Niall and I got in our only fight ever over who could have you and you are talented you may not be able to sing or act or draw but you are talented, we all love and adore you, you something different to all of us, your Louis person to get in trouble with and Nialls person to laugh with and you’re the person I could tell anything to and I hope you know you could tell me anything because you can. And your Harry’s sister he loves you and would never let anything happen to you, he never shuts up about you he will always be there when you need him. And last but not least you’re Liams love, you may not be able to see it but when he looks at you its like watching a blind man see the sun for the first time. I cant even describe it, he would do anything for you and would never hurt you in anyway. I love Perrie but I don’t even think our relationship is as strong as yours and Liams. You guys were like made for eachother like two puzzle pieces in a jig saw puzzle. And I know the hate is hard but you just need to remember that we are here for you and they are all just jealous and Liam is defiantly worth the hate”