Can't Stop Fucking With You

Chapter 34

Elijah

I just left Samantha there and waited for her to wake up. There wasn't much for me to do other than think.

"Like I'm really fed up with these females and my nigga"

Is that really how I make her feel ? Like I'm just for everyone ?

She's everything that I want. I haven't cheated or messed with a females purposely or gave them consent about anything since the first time I cheated, and that was at the very beginning of our relationship. I made that dumb mistake and I won't ever forgive myself for it.

I had a girl make her think that I got her pregnant, and that made her leave me and have sex with another guy.

She's about to graduate in a few months and I really wanted to propose to her , but if this is the way I make her feel I wouldn't feel right doing that. I have to make sure the next 5 months are amazing for her.

She won't ever have to deal with another female. I put her through enough already. I can't keep putting her under stress.

Darryl

I watched as Krystal slept comfortably on my lap at this loud ass party. I swear she can sleep through anything.

I really do feel as if she's mentally drained because of Elijah. She really does love him and all this stress isn't good for her or their relationship. She slept on the ride here, through the party, and on the way back.

I was actually trying to hit somebody here, but I couldn't just get up and leave Krystal here. There were multiple guys that were asking if me and her were dating or if they could get her number and no matter how tempting it was I told them she had a boyfriend.

They've been through it all, and I mean all. They've been on good terms lately so I have to give it to him. This last time shouldn't have happened and it didn't have to happen if he would've never told her to leave. Who tells their girlfriend that ? Anyway that's not my business.

Krystal

I woke up in the car and if this is where I slept I'm surprised. No never mind, what I'm surprised about is that we're still on the rode. Heading to Elijah's ? I really don't know. We're going the opposite way from my house and down his street so that's the only thing that makes sense right ? I'm sleepy still so I could be wrong.

We get to our destination which was Elijah's house and Darryl gets out but leaves me inside. I sigh not ready to really face Elijah or even get up to be honest but as soon as I was about to open the door Elijah there with a nervous smile.

I'm not even mad anymore. If he said he didn't want her then I believe him. He even told me afterwards. It wasn't like he was hiding it from me. I'm not mad at the fact he made me leave. Honestly he had a guest and I was "acting out."  I really don't care about anything anymore.

I love him but I'm getting tired. Honestly and truly. We haven't dealt with females or any problems for a while to be honest and I'm thankful for that. I had my little baby mindset moment, but it wasn't nothing serious.

I let down the window with a sigh. We just stared at each other for a while before he finally spoke up."Krystal, ?" he whispered which brought me out of my trans. Every time I look into his eyes, I get lost.

"Yes."

"I'm sorry that I made you feel this way. That you're not what I want. That I have to have multiple women. That you're just not enough for me-I love you. I'm deeply and madly in love you. I couldn't see myself without you."

"Elijah, I'-"

"Let me finish-I'm sorry about what I said and what I did this weekend. I shouldn't have did that and I'm sorry," he said sighing afterwards.

"Elijah, I'm not mad at you. I don't care anymore. I shouldn't have ever beat her ass in the first place because who's ass gone go to jail ? Eh ? No mine," I said giggling as he did too.

"So you really do forgive me, ?" he asked with hopeful eyes.

I smiled at the sight, "Yes, of course I do."

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Samantha was still at the place, but she hadn't said anything to me since I've been here. It's actually pretty funny. She's the one who said I wouldn't do anything, but once I do something she can't speak ? I'm hurt. Oh my gosh I can't even be fake in my head. Anyway, we're currently eating dinner in the kitchen. She's sitting at the table while me and Elijah's are eating at the couch.

She looks really into the tv show Elijah put on for us to watch, but to me it isn't all that. It was actually kind of boring. Samantha has about 2 more days here or so. Either way I'm cool with it because my man wants me and has always wanted me. Simple as that.

I finished my plate and got up to put it away.  I decided to go sketch while watching a movie or show I actually was interested in. I love tumbling and since Elijah has this big room with only a few things in it, I tumble in there instead of going to the gym.

While watching the movie and sketching, I zoned out. I started thinking about everything that's been happening since I've gotten with Elijah.

I know what Darryl thinks of Elijah and what he's done to me. He didn't even have to say it for me to know.

Am I dumb for staying with Elijah though ?

Yes, I've had to deal with girls but it isn't like he hasn't have to deal with Darius. Darius is a whole different story.

I haven't had to deal with a female and him in a while to be honest. I don't know why now this had to happen.

Am I not myself anymore ?

I like to think I am. I still feel and I still care. I still have some type of feelings. I guess I'm just numb now about dealing with him and girls. I just don't care anymore. Maybe I am stupid, maybe I just need someone there for me, or maybe..I just don't want to be alone.

Maybe I just need.....me.

"Krystal ? Are you okay ?"