Naked

W o n d e r e r

I know i wish you'd die in my memory and i know you have for a century or two , but your ghost keeps coming back to life haunting my walking life .
Haunting what i thought i buried with you , memories and homesickness .
Digging it back to life to accompany you because i know you're lonely in the underworld , i know because it's lonely here too .

I'm surrounded by your misery,a part of me wants to just burn everything and another likes the warmth and the stupid smile they give me whenever i go to bed and hug who used to be our fictional friend .

I cuddle with my past and It's unhealthy, i cuddle with your demons and they sooth my demons sometimes .
It's terrifying for me to admit that I'm hurt . It hurts me more than the pain you left with me .
A pain that I cannot ignore , yet never willing to accept again .

And here i lay wondering if you buried me infinitely or do my demons haunt you like you haunt my corners .
Here i lay creating a billion conversation in my mind of a maze for it's the only place i talk and you'd actually listen .
Here i lay in my busy being , wondering if i ever cross your mind.here i lay wondering just wondering..