Typical Girl

Chapter 9

Love definitely changed your perspective in so many ways . Things that you wouldn't do you done . That love shit would have you bending backwards , while still blind to the fake. Love couldn't get shit from me . I was all "'love" the fuck out . I'm not love-able.

"Fuck " I shouted out feeling a pop from the grease . While cooking Kash and I something. It wasn't dinner it was something quick . Fried tacos stuff with jerk chicken , and the side red beans and rice .

The whole time I been there I just been thinking about the conversation with Toni . It was sad to say but if it came down to it . I would help Kash kill him . Debating if I was goin tell Kash what was up and what I knew . I was real hesitant . Toni took care of me and my mom , but Kash was my dawg . I felt like I was stuck . I was even more fucked up cause I couldn't understand why I was battling with my self .

Fuck it ! I'm telling him .

" How was your day ? " I asked giving him his plate

" Honestly " I added moving back his plate .

He really ain't say too much since I been there . That wasn't like him what so ever .

" Alright . I felt like I was watched . " he said putting out the blunt . My heart took off .

"Why you say that ?"

" Sit down . " he said as he tap the space on the couch next to him .

I sat down taking a bite out of my taco . I notice he was avoiding contact with me . He kept playing with his fingernails .

" What's wrong ? "

He still didn't say nothing . I finish stuffing rice in my mouth taking a sip of my pop . As he was about to speak my phone start vibrating catching both of our attention .

I know it was rude to be on my phone but I couldn't risk what it could of been . Quickly unlocking my phone . I went to my iMessages .

Triple T ❤️👩‍👩‍👧 : Where are you ? I don't feel good .
11:19pm

I replied to Tria letting her know I wasn't going to be home tonight . I haven't ever left her unattended . At this point she gotta learn . Who is to say that I will out live her .

I looked up meeting eyes with Kash . I couldn't help but to laugh . I know this was a serious moment but damn what could you possible tell me . His face didn't change . So I stop laughing . I took a sip of my pop .

" I gotta baby on the way Tee . " He blurted out

I started choking on my pop. I felt like I lost breath . I don't care how crazy I sound but time did freeze . I felt my heart crush and my feelings tear in half . How the hell did we go being watched to a having a baby .

" NIGGA YOU WHAT !!! " I hollered jumping up " DID YOU JUST ... WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY "

" I gotta -"

" I HEARD WHAT THE FUCK YOU SAID " I yelled muffing him .

I was mad and my feelings was hurt . I knew it was selfish but He was mine. Him having a baby was everything , I was excited for that . I was going to be a god mother . The fact that he actually was loving on somebody that much to be careless is what heart breaking . In all honesty I thought I would have his first child . I prayed on it .

" Trinity . You not happy ? " he asked standing up " I THOUGHT YOU OF ALL PEOPLE "

"NIGGGA ! KEMONTE' DONT GO THERE " I snapped putting my finger in his face .