*Warning: I wrote this poem at 2 something in the morning. I kind of felt like I was falling apart. Thus, there is some depression and anxiety in this poem. Not to worry, as I am posting this poem, I feel better. Therefore, I do not really want to talk about the moments of weakness that are revealed in this poem. Please no questions, I am alright. Thank you for your support.*
Silence and solitude.
Darkness and the empty light of the moon.
The clouds illuminated
As they make their lonesome trek
Across the sky.
A stray car on the road
And gone.
What a lonely landscape.
As I looked out
Upon the trees
And the sky
And the clouds,
I thought it was beautiful
Then, the tears started to fall.
I know why.
Loneliness broke into my heart
Because the security systems were disarmed.
I don't know why, but
I let it happen again.
I let my heart roam free
And it came back in full.
I guess, now I pay the price.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I don't know why I feel so lonely.
The limitations and restrictions
Imposed by distance are really eating my heart.
They think it's delicious.
These lonely nights really drain me of emotional energy.
Confound it!
I did it again!
I am so attached to you, but
You are so far away.
Why?!
Why did I let this happen again?!
Uncertainty and stress
Overwhelm me.
As I am pinned to the ground,
Loneliness rushes forward to
Suffocate me.
So, I stop struggling and give in.
All I can do is cry as I listen to
The shuffle of the morning
As it lurks around the corner.
Help me.
I am scared, lonely, and stressed.
The warmth of the blankets
Contains me
As my pain rolls down my face.
Tomorrow will be better.
I just have to keep moving forward.
Right?
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PoesiaI do not usually write much poetry. When I do, I'll post it here. Thank you for your support and for reading. It means a lot to me :D
