The Controlling Lover (ON HOLD)

Chapter Fifteen

Time passed by like nothing for us. After that day, we had gotten closer. We'd see each other at school and go by to each others' place. Though when he first mentioned coming to my place, I didn't feel so sure about it. I mean he lives in the CitySpire Penthouse. And I live in... nyeh.

But when he came over, it didn't end up so bad. I cooked up dinner for him, we sat down and watched a movie. The Fast & The Furious, that is. We were so into the movie and we had popcorn flying in the air, trying to catch it in our mouths. Once that was done, we ate dinner and he complimented my cooking. After that, we had some of the wine he brought. It was white wine. I have no idea what the name is, but it went something like Pino Grigo, or somewhere along that line.

And then we hit it to bed.

And it was amazing! I never thought I'd have sex at my place. Ever! And then that happened and boy was it something!

Time continued on and I got a better job. I used to work for a bakery at the counter, but that was only when they didn't have enough people at the register. Arnav told me to work at his company, but I declined. I want to be capable for the job, not get it as his girlfriend.

So work took up my time and that lowered down visiting hours. Work began to boost up for him as well and the only time we saw each other was either in class, in the halls, or video chat. That was it.

But even though we couldn't see each other often, it didn't break us apart. At night, we were always on the phone. On weekends, we would always talk about our day, telling each other of our day. From the moment we woke up, up until the moment we called, we'd tell each other about everything. Be it me talking about Lavanya's stupid antics, school, or work, or even him talking about school, work, and his workers, the conversations always went on.

With the time we've been spending together, it has me thinking about our relationship. I can't believe it started from me following him and yelling at him for doing pot. He's even stopped pot because of me! And now here we are, holding hands in school, going to each others places, kissing, sexing, everything! All because of my curiosity!

I thank myself everyday for that. And then it got me wondering: why do I keep thanking myself for meeting him? As days passed with him, the question grew even more. The question rose to be: what does he mean to me? And then a big question hit me one day when I was drinking Pepsi out of it's 2 liter bottle: do I love him?

After that, it was all I could think about. Nonstop, at school, at work, with Lav, you name it; that was all I thought about. Except when I was with him. Around him, I would focus on what was going on and then once we went our ways, I'd think if I could actually be in love with him.

And then, after finally being able to get some spare time, I stayed over at his place. That night was just filled with so much passion and steam, I realized as Arnav fell asleep, holding me in his arms, that I did love him.

I, Khushi Kumari Gupta, am in love with him, Arnav Singh Raizada. But is this good? I mean even though we've been together all this time, I still don't have a clue of his secrets. Those topics have always been avoided. And why wouldn't it be if you have romantic dinners at expensive places, dates at each others' places, sexing, chilling, and all those things coming in the way? I just never got the chance to ask. But do I even want to ask? Do I want to know of his secrets?

It doesn't matter. I don't care. I love the man the way he is. Secrets or no secrets, he is beautiful in his own way. If I have managed to love this man not knowing his secrets then, I can continue to do so now.

But how do I tell him? How do I tell him that I love him? Is he going to be ecstatic? Will he say that he loves me too? I mean we've spent so much time together, so he might say that.