Finding Love

Chapter 6

I wanted to melt. I wanted to become a puddle and disappear. Actually I didn't want to be a puddle, I wanted to be a bird. To just take off from this awkward situation and never come back. But I couldn't. I turned into a wolf. Not a bird and as a wolf I couldn't just take off out the open window. Even with the thoughts of running and the blood rising to my face I knew I had to act like the rejection didn't still cut deep or that it even hurt at all. 

So I looked at him with the sweetest smile I could muster, stuck out my hand and said "So we kinda got off to the wrong foot earlier." I heard Eric snicker in my mind while he said"Really now? No one noticed" "I'm Caitlin and thank you for letting us stay here".

He took my offered hand and it took almost all my will power to gasp at the tinglings shooting up my arm. "I'm Will and it's no problem". His voice sounded gruff with a hint of surprise and anger.

I took my hand back and sat back down.  I still felt awkward. I hated when people didn't like me. It made me feel so uncomfortable because what if they said something and we actually got into a fight. I mean I don't mind screaming like a lunatic at someone it just sucks knowing that someone honestly doesn't like the person who you are. Nick started to chat happily with Eric and Will about sports and other packs while Taylor, Ally, and I used the mind link so we could talk to each other without anyone hearing us.

"You have to admit he seems pretty chill right now," Taylor said.

"True but when it's me he's talking to he seems like he's going to eat me" I said smiling.

"What if he did try to eat you? Like honestly how would you respond?" Ally questioned.

Laughter was threatening to spill out of my lips as I said, "I'd probably be like ,no doggy! Cannibalism is not cool and I don't even taste good you don't want me".

What I said probably wasn't even funny it's just the fact that we we're talking about being eaten that made us all explode with laughter. The boys all looked at us as we tried to control our laughter. Eric gave us a confused stare so we all tapped our heads and smiled at each other. Which caused another round of laughter.

"Honestly was it even that funny?" Eric questioned.

Ally grinned up at him and said "No doggy! Cannibalism is not cool and I don't even taste good you don't want me".

We all giggled and Eric smiled a little but Nick and Will sat there and stared at us.

"Caitlin and Ally for once made a good joke," Taylor told Eric.

"Hey now I'm a comedy genius". I cried out in my defence.

Taylor and Eric scoffed. For once Ally didn't try to defend herself. We all looked at her waiting for her to respond to Taylor 's remark.

"What?" she asked.

"I don't know you usually have something to say," Eric said looking at her.

"Hey even I know I either kill the joke or my joke just isn't funny in the first place," she said with a shrug.

Nick looked over at her and smiled "Your that friend?"

She smirked. "And I'm damn proud of it".

Will grinned over at her and I would be lying if I said I wasn't jealous of her getting that smile instead of me.

"You see Nick over here is that friend yet he refuses to admit it," Will said shocking us all or maybe just me that he was engaging in a conversation with someone in our group.

"I am a funny guy. At least that's what all the girls tell me," Nick said looking over at Will.

Will looked at Ally and said "See completely denies it".

I wanted to say something to get him to look at me to get that smile. Wait no I mentally shook my head. I was not going to let him get to me. If he didn't want to look at me or talk to me or even fucking acknowledge my presence that was all fine and dandy with me. Honestly I could go shit gold out I was so cool with it. Cool as a watermelon. Wait no a cucumber. Cool as a cucumber I am. 

When I finished the rest of my food on my plate I excused myself from the table.

"I still have to unpack so I'm going to get going". I said as I got up.

Taylor laughed and got up also.

"Hahaha. What  interesting object did you find? I Found some old silly putty and all of a sudden Ally was in my room announcing that dinner was ready".

"It was a bouncy ball," I sighed.

"Well good night everyone". I said waving and I honestly was shocked when Will's voice joined in with the chorus of my friends voices all wishing me a good night.

Taylor walked by my side as we walked to our rooms. We walked slowly at first afraid that if we went any faster we would miss our rooms. We talked about the little things as we walked. Things like how much it sucked that we would probably be stuck here for awhile or how our mum would take it. Taylor and I figured that she'd drag herself all the way out here just to get us. When we turned to our separate door we said our nights. Once alone I honestly didn't know what to do with myself I unpacked my stuff and put it away in the proper spaces. The room was starting to feel like my room considering all my stuff lay everywhere. At around ten I just layed down on my bed and stared up at the ceiling. I liked the way it made spirals and sometimes the spirals would combine to make a shape or something cool looking.

I must have fell asleep looking at the ceiling because almost instantly I could feel the sun shining down on me. I got my clothes and dragged myself to the shower. I probably smelt bad last night but hey who really cared? Well probably everyone I most likely offended their noses. 

I opened the door to Taylor's room to see her putting on make up in the bathroom mirror. 

"Oh my god thank you!" she cried turning to face me.

I looked at her blankly, trying to figure out what I could possibly have done that would deserve her thanks.

"Ugh I just didn't want to go down to breakfast all by myself. It would have felt so awkward like we don't really know anyone here but Nick and Will," she said.

I smiled completely in understanding I didn't want to go down there all by myself. I don't think Ally did either because all of a sudden she ran through Taylor's door and looked at me.

"You couldn't have stayed in your room? I thought I was going to have to go down there alone and just chill there with Eric and his new buddies. You guys left early last night so you didn't have to deal with it, but they all just talked to each other and barley said a word to me it got so awkward I just got up and left and the worst part is they didn't even know I left," she rushed out.

We looked at her sympathetically. But I was kinda glad I got to skip the awkwardness. I could pretend to be strong all I wanted but deep down inside I knew like everyone else that rejection hurts. It hurt to know that by just looking at me he didn't want me and yes I completely understood that I would be able to move on but it would always hurt to know that he hadn't even given me a chance.

Author's Note:   

Holy crap I updated like twice in two weeks. I'm pretty proud of myself. So can you guys tell me how you like the story so far because I want your opinions on it. If i should continue or if I should completly scrap this story and try something else? Well please comment tell me hows you guys life been and omg to think I wrote My Hot New Neighbors when I was in the seventh grade. I'm going to be a junior this year like holy crap. well don't forget to vot if you liked this and comment whatever because I like seeing you guy's comments. :)