Notes to the Broken

Chapter 22

After that, every, little, thing changed.

Everyday the clean smell of the hospital filled my nostrils. And the filthy smell of my puke replaced it. Whether it was because of the baby, or because of Nathan being gone, it made me sick. 

Nathan. He was gone. Gone forever. We went on this long journey to be together, only to be ripped apart by the game of life. We were meant to be together, and it was ruined, forever. The love of my life was gone. And my little boy or girl, wasn't going to know what a wonderful man their daddy was. The bravest, most amazing man I had ever known.

My daydreams were interrupted by the nurse. 

"Hello Rayne, are you ready?"

Today was the day I left. I was now 7 months pregnant and almost completely healed from the transplant. The night they told me I was pregnant, and that Nathan was gone I took the only razor I could find and cut. Cut and cried until I began to feel faint. Then the nurse came in and comforted me. Tried to make me believe that everything was going to be okay. But out of her  nice mind, nothing could change what had happened. 

Nathan was dead. 

I was pregnant.

Movies that me and Nathan watched were now a reality and I had too grow up and learn how too be a mom. 

Karen an Jason came in everyday and they never judged. But I knew I was going to get a lecture as soon as I got home. I shed a tear at the thought then climbed out of bed. I was wearing an over sized hospital gown considering 

I looked like a hippo, and my long brown hair looked like poop. Tangled, greasy and not brushed. The nurse handed me some maternity clothes and I went to the bathroom to change. I thought about how my life was about to change all over again. I was going to walk into the house and the smell was going to intoxicate me with memories. I was going walk into my room and look at the crack in the wall and cry. I was going to go into Nathan's room and die. 

I pulled on the huge pants, and huge shirt and gathered some of my stuff. I walked out of the room and into the vacant hallway I stretched a little and tried not to be too overwhelmed, as I stepped into the room that Nathan took his life in. I closed my eyes. Feeling his presence in a weird way, almost bizarre. I opened them to find crystal blue eyes staring at my brown ones. Nate smiled and grabbed my hand just like he used too. I was in complete shock. But...a good kind of shock. 

"I am still loving you. I will always love you. I'm watching you all the time, protecting you from any more harm than you've already been in, Rayne. I will always love you. We will always be together."

Nathan made a heart with his hands and pressed it too my chest. I looked down at it. Then, I looked back up to find Nathan, gone. 

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I walked into the elevator knowing everything that just happened was 100 percent real. No day dreaming about it. I smiled. Knowing Nathan was watching me right now.

"I love you too, Nathan"

My smile soon faded knowing that this was the elevator Nathan refused to take, so he could see if I was alright. He ran up the stairs only to be disappointed at my pale sick face. I looked down, then back up at Karen and Jasons faces as the doors opened. Then each of their arms wrapped around each of my shoulders, and we walked out to the car. I kinda waddled into the backseat. And smiled at how funny I looked. I was in a much better mood. Not even scared that I had just seen Nathan's spirit. He would want me happy. Not sad. Hopeful.

We drove, and as we got to the house, Jason picked up the speed a little and drove past it. I looked at him in the mirror, confused. He just smiled slightly and kept driving. 

We pulled up tot he hill that Nathan and I first made love on, but the weird part about it was that there was a large stone on it. As we drove closer I noticed there was writing on it.

We hopped out of the car and I held my stomach as we walked up the hill. I fell on my knees and I read

"Nathan Michael Parker a loved brother and father"

(AN)

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Nathan is gone ):

But he's watching Rayne <3

ANYWAY!

Chapter 23 will be the end ):

But the sequel will have the story of Rayne and her little boy/girl.

I want you guys to message me on here, or if you know me in real life you can message be on Facebook telling me if Rayne's baby should be a boy or a girl!!!!! Then after about 15-20 votes I will have another voting thing on what the name should be, I will pick the best one!!!!! Okay well I will try to put up the last chapter tomorrow, I love you all!!!