Wake Up, You're Different

Chapter 7

"Do your work Syd"
"But I wanna snuggle with you"
"Do your work"
"Fine, but I really don't want to"
"You should do it."
"Paisley I want to cuddle with you."
"Fine but you have to do your work after. I don't want you to fail your classes because of me. I'm broken. And I want you to graduate, I don't think I will."
"P yes you will. You're really smart and you aren't broken, you are human"
"Syd I love you"
"I love you too"
She kissed me on the cheek and went downstairs to work. I curled up in bed and waited for her to come upstairs. She takes way too long for homework.
"Paisley are you asleep yet?"
"No, why?"
"Nothing I wanted to tell you I'm sorry and that I love you."
"I love you too but it's my fault."
"No it's mine"
"Let's just go to bed"
"Fine"
"I love you sweetie"
"Love you too"
I fell asleep with her arms wrapped around me. She started shaking in her sleep.
"Sydney, wake up"
"What?"
"You were shaking in your sleep"
"I was?"
"Yeah"
"Well I was having a nightmare again"
"Again?"
"Yeah I always have nightmares"
"About what?"
"You..."
"Why me?"
"I'm afraid for you. I'm scared when I leave you alone you are going to do it. I love you and I don't want anything to happen to you."
"I'm sorry sweetie"
"It's not your fault"
"Yes it is. I always make you worried about me. I make you upset. I don't want to hurt you anymore than I already have. I love you."
"Paisley, you can't control your mental health."
"I can try for you."
"I don't want you too. I want all your pain. And I love you just the way you are and I don't know what I'd do if you changed."
"But wouldn't you rather have someone who was normal?"
"I want you just the way you are"
"Are you sure? Even if you go through this every night?"
"Yes and I love you so much and I don't care."
"We should go to bed."
"Yeah we have to go to school tomorrow."
"Please don't make me go."
"Syd you have to go."
"Fine. Love you."
"Love your more."
"Tomorrow morning?"
"Sure."
I snuggled up with her and fell asleep. She tried to wake me up in the morning by kissing me.
"Syyyyyd I'm tired."
"Pleassssssse"
"I don't want to move."
"You don't have to."
"Ugh fine."
She started kissing me slowly and softly. She's so perfect when she's in love. I finally wanted to move. I wrapped my arms around her and kept going. She kept kissing me.
"Syd we have to go to school."
"No we don't"
She gave me her puppy eyes and stuck her lip out like a toddler.
"Syd"
"Fine"
We both got ready for school. We didn't have time to eat breakfast so we ran out the door. When we got to school the counselor called me into her office. I refused to go unless Syd came with me. We sat there and she held my hand.
"Paisley we think you should stay out of school for a while."
"What why?"
I squeezed her hand tightly.
"We think you are in a bad place mentally and it effects your focus too much."
"I swear Paisley is fine. She is so strong and she's getting better."
She was squeezing my hand tighter and tighter the angrier she got.
"Syd I can handle this. I am getting better and I think school will be fine. Now if you excuse us we have class."
"Damn P you're so cute when you're angry."
She wrapped her arms around me in the middle of the hallway.
"I thought you were sexy defending me like that"
"Really?"
"Yeah"
"Go class sexy"
"Noooooo"
I wrapped my arms tighter around her. I didn't want her to leave me.
"P I have to go"
"Fine, have fun."
I kissed her lips and she kissed me back. Everyone was watching us but we didn't really care.
Finally school was over and I got to see her again. I ran at her and she pulled me close and kissed me.
"Let's go home"
"YES THIS IS ALL IVE WANTED ALL DAY!!!"
"Someone's happy to be out of there."
"It hasn't been a good day."
"Aww I'm sorry sweetie"
"AND ITS ONLY TUESDAY!"
"You know you're cute when your angry?"
"Am I REALLY though?"
"Yes you are. You're perfect."
"Awww I love you."
"Love you too."
She but her arms around me and held me tight, she was obviously upset. I didn't want to bring it up because sometimes that makes her more upset. But I wanted to know what was wrong.
"Syd what's wrong?"
"Nothing."
"Are you sure? It doesn't seem like nothing."
"ITS NOTHING OKAY LEAVE ME ALONE."
I ran away from her crying and she stormed off. I couldn't even think straight. I went home, ran into my room and couldn't stop crying.
Twenty minutes pass, and I hear a knocking on my door.
"Paisley please let me in. I don't want to make you mad. I just want to talk. Please." Syd says, voice cracking slightly. I hesitate, but eventually I roll off my bed and walk to the door. Just as I'm about to open the door, something hits me. I don't know what, but i back out.
"I can't Syd." I say, holding back tears. I run back to my bed and bury my face into my pillow and cry. I hear Syd leaving my house, getting into her car, crying harder, which makes me cry harder. I cried for two days, and by then I've run out of tears. I don't know what to do.

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A/N: Sorry about not posting for a while. I have been writing I just forget to post. I'm going to upload a bunch of chapters today and tomorrow so have fun and I hope you enjoy! <3

Oh and the last little bit (the only decent part in the story) was written by @paytyn1023 who is one of my amazing friends and is the one who told me to start writing.