Wake Up, You're Different

Chapter 13

I don't remember anything from last night but all I know is that I'm in the hospital again. Syd was crying and my parents were there too. They didn't seem to care. Syd walked in and grabbed my hand.
"Paisley you have so much to live for, you have me and your smart and beautiful. Please don't try that again. I'll keep you safe but promise me that you want to get better."
I knew what happened.
"I'm so sorry."

We both knew what we needed. She leaned in and kissed me softly. I kissed back and we went like this for a while. She pulled away and grabbed my hand again. The doctor came in and told me I would be fine but gave me a list of therapists and told me to pick one because I had to go. I told them I was fine but they reminded me that I had just tried to kill myself. I picked one and moved along with my day, they let me go home but Syd has to keep an eye on me. She knew I was mad at myself.
"Paisley come on we are going out."
"What?"
"Get dressed."
I threw on jeans and a t shirt and went downstairs. She kissed me and we got in the car. She held onto my hand as we drove.
"Where are we going?"
"I don't know yet."
"Really?"
"Yeah, we just need to clear our heads."
I was looking out the window and knew instantly where she was taking me. We pulled into my favorite spot in the world, the beach. Thank god we live somewhere warm because normally you can't do this in the middle of December. We sat on the bench looking over the calm water. I put my head on her shoulder and she put hers on mine. She knew exactly how to make me feel better. I fiddled with the ring on my finger and remembered how much she loved me. I don't know why I tried to do what I did last night.
"Syd?"
"Yes?"
"Why do you love me? I'm broken and you could be so much happier with someone else. Why me?"
"Paisley, I love you because you are perfect and you aren't broken. You make me feel special and I will love you until the day I die."
"I feel the same way. And anyway I am perfect for you."
"Yes you are."
She smiled and kissed me softly and slowly. I knew at that point she loved me and would never leave me.

"Wake up baby"
"Do I have to?"
"Yes wake up, you have therapy after school today and I'm coming with you."
"No I don't want to go to therapy."
"Paisley you need to go."
"No."
"Please? Go for me. If you don't want to do it for yourself, do it for me."
"No."
I hid under the covers like a 5 year old. I didn't want to talk to a stranger about my problems and have them judge me.
"Syd it makes me uncomfortable."
"Let's try it okay? I'll be there every step of the way."
"Only if you stay with me."
"I will."
She kissed my cheek and forced me to get ready for school.
"We are going to be late!"
"Syd it's fine."
"Ughhhh I'll be in the car"
I quickly threw on clothes and grabbed my backpack. I got into the car and we left for school. I was fiddling with my ring and Syd was singing to the radio. She's not a good singer but it's really cute. She grabbed my hand because she knew I was getting nervous for the appointment later. We walked into school together like normal but something felt off. Syd knew that something was off too. Instead of trying to figure it out, she put her arms around my waist and kissed me.
"Stop the PDA you lesbians"
I knew the voice. I didn't even have to look at him.
"Kyle stop. You're jealous that you don't have me anymore."
"That's not true. And the girl I used to know wasn't depressed and cut her wrists."
The whole hallway looked at me and I squeezed Syd's hand so hard she winced in pain. She knew I didn't mean it but I was upset.
"And the reasoning is you've been out to get me and it's making me unsafe and not want to come to school. My girlfriend here is the reason I'm getting better."
I turned around and continued kissing her. She knew what I was doing and played along. Everyone watched us and knew how much we loved each other. Kyle grabbed me and pulled me away from Syd. I screamed in pain. He started to kiss me and I pulled away from him. I punched him and he fell on the floor. The administrator came rushing over to break it up. By this point he was on the ground in pain and I was in her arms.
"Paisley."
"Yes?"
"That was not appropriate."
"HE GRABBED ME AND KISSED ME. THAT IS SEXUAL ASSULT AND YOUR TELLING ME I ACTED INAPPROPRIATELY."
I ran away and Syd ran after me. I locked myself in the bathroom stall and cried. All of a sudden Syd was at my side.
"What the fuck"
"I crawled under the stall, I didn't want to leave you alone."
I smiled at her. She knew me better than anyone in the world. I put my head on her shoulder. I was still in shock, I was shivering. She took off her sweatshirt and gave it to me. I put it on and snuggled up in it. It smelled like her. Jokes on her, she's not getting it back.
"Can I go home yet?"
"Yeah I'll take you home."

A/N: Sorry it's been so long. My mental health has been a problem this past month. I'm trying to post more now but I also have had writers block. (I'm just a mess) Love you guys and enjoy!