A Murderous Love

Realization

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I had just gotten discharged from the hospital. Xavier and Pedro had stayed with me everyday. They hadn't left my side since they arrived. I was so great full that I had such amazing people in my life. They had dropped me off at the apartment and made sure I was settled in before they left. I was sitting on the couch just sitting in silence. Nothing felt right anymore, the happiest that I had once felt, and it had left that night when Eddie and V walked out that door. I couldn't even cry anymore because I didn't deserve to it was my fault that I felt like this. All the times that I had laughed with them it was all a memory now. Memories that I don't deserve to have because of what I did. I got up tired of feeling sorry for myself. I did like them and I was willing to fight to keep them in my life. I got dressed then drove over to their apartment. I was right outside their door, but I couldn't do it. I wanted to knock and for them to open the door. I wanted them to kiss me like I had never been kissed before, but I knew I wasn't welcome. I stood there just staring at the door not being able to do anything else. "V, is she still out there?" Eddie asked as he moved around the apartment. "Yes," Eddie stoped moving and just stared at the door. He went to walk close when V stopped him. "She's leaving," it had been hard not having (y/n) around. It always seemed dark in the apartment now no matter how many lights were on. There was no laughter just sadness and it seemed to follow them everywhere they went. Venom had lost his appetite most likely from the sadness that overwhelmed the both of them. They had gone to (y/n)'s apartment many times they knew she wasn't there. She was still in the hospital, but even knowing that they were drawn to that place. They had broken down at her door late one night after a few drinks. It was excruciating how much they missed and wanted to be with her, but how could they? After all that happened they had almost killed someone they care so much for. "Eddie?" Venom asked snapping out of his thoughts. "Yeah, buddy?" Eddie said moving away from the door. "Can we go see her?" He knew Eddie wanted to see her too, but what would happen when they actually did. "Not today, but maybe soon." Eddie said as he continued to move around the apartment. I went to my car feeling ashamed. Why couldn't I have just knocked said anything and everything that I wanted to. I stood being a coward not having to strength to do it. I pumped myself up in the car then I got out I headed right back to their door. I stopped as I figured out what I was going to say if he did open the door. "Eddie, she's back." Eddie stood in front of the door waiting for her to knock or say something. Then she did it she knocked. Eddie was hesitant to even walk over to the door while (y/n) was on the other side freaking out. "What do you want?" Eddie asked in a harsh tone. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I know that you guys don't want me here, but I can't just pretend that I didn't have feelings toward you. I can't just go back to how my life was and I know I have no right to be here after all that I did, but I love you both of you." I was waiting, but Venom said exactly what I was thinking. "Why? Why would you even say that? How can you even say that you love us after all that happened? If anything had been different on that night you would have been dead and it would have been our fault. We can't forgive ourselves and most importantly how can we forgive you?" I could tell that Venom was really spilling his heart out to me, but I deserved to fight to keep them in my life. "I understand what you're saying, but even if I almost died it wouldn't matter if I didn't have you in my life." I felt tears start to well up in my eyes. "(Y/n), just go." Eddie said and I cried all the way back to my car. I drove to the warehouse where I knew my true family was. Pedro let me in and was immediately calming me down. I hadn't told them about Eddie and Venom, but they did know that I had been seeing someone. We all sat in the common area as I explained what happened leaving most parts out of context. They all sat there listening then supported me and said that I should fight for them if I love them. I left on a happier note, but was still feeling the lingering sadness still deep inside.