A Murderous Love

Hitting Rock Bottom

A/n: Just a quick trigger warning there is going to be some depression in this chapter and the possibility of a suicide attempt. No, I don't think this is a good thing in everyday life, but our girl seems to be going down a path. I'm sorry? Love you guy!
It went to Eddie's apartment again today. I stood outside the door just like I had done for the past few weeks. I was determined to fight for them even if they believed that they weren't worthy of my love. I was just standing there like I did every week when the door opened. I was surprised after all the times I had stood out here they decided to acknowledge me know? That's when Venom pulled me into the apartment then set me in a chair. He used himself to prevent me from moving. "Why do you keep coming back?" Venom asked and I smiled down at my feet. "Because I'm determined," that's when I saw Eddie walk from around the corner. "I don't understand why do you still want to be with us? We almost killed you and yet you keep coming back," Eddie was pacing around the room trying to understand my reasoning. "Well, first of all I don't understand it either. I just know that I want to be with you. I can't stop thinking about you guys and really you're all I have. And the job thing that was entirely my fault. I should have told you after all I saw you guys many times when doing a job. I just had never realized you had been trying to hunt me down," I said as I began to feel all of my emotions well up inside of me. My eyes started to water as I began to cry. "I know it wasn't right for me to not tell you, but I'm not proud of that side of me. It's not something that I go around telling everyone I meet," I said getting a bit frustrated. "And you think we go around everyday just stating all the things that we find unpleasant about ourselves?" I could tell that Venom has been frustrated for a while. "I don't go around spouting off to everyone that I've gone through a divorce, that I have an alien living inside my body, or the fact that I'm in love with a hit man!" Eddie said yelling at me and that's when I knew that I couldn't fight for them if they aren't willing to fight for me. "Fine, I'll leave and you won't have to see me again." I got up easily getting out of Venom's grasp. They were both in shock as I walked out of their apartment. I continued to walk back to my car even as I fought every urge to go back to them. I went home and cried for hours. Why couldn't they have just killed me? If they had I wouldn't be feeling like this. If they didn't want to fight for me then how am I supposed to fight for them? I thought for a while in those moments that we could have been something. I see now that I was just reading too far into things. They didn't want me at least they don't anymore. Who or what did I have left in this world? My family disowned me, I have a terrible job, and now I don't even have someone to love. All of this hurts and I want to be gone. Just disappear into nothing. "What do we do now?" Venom asked me and I wasn't sure. (Y/n) had walked out without saying another word. "I don't know," I sat down on the floor feeling as if my whole life had walked out the door with her. We wanted her, but how could we have her when she almost died because of us. "I have a feeling that something bad is on its way," I got up then walked to the window. "You ready?" I asked hoping Venom knew what I meant. "Yes," And with that I jumped out the window as Venom took over. We were on the way to (y/n)'s apartment. I was hoping the bad feeling that we were both getting was a glitch, but I was sure that it wasn't.