I'm tired of sleeping
I'm tired of weeping
I'm tired of all the pain
I'm tired of all the shame
I'm trying to fight
I'm trying to find the light
I'm trying to eat more
I'm trying to gain weight
But then
I crash and I burn
I will never learn
That people are rude
That they have an attitude
They will never understand
They are fakes, just bland
This is just life in a bottle
Then there's the mask
You pretend to smile
But you can only pretend for a while
You try to be positive
But you become explosive
You put in effort
But that means pain forever
You are a bright colourful person
But that will only worsen
Then fact you want to die
A shot to kill the pain
A pill to drain the shame
A smoke to ease the crave
A drink to win the game
An addiction is an addiction
It always hurts the same
I don't know who will leave or stay
So i pushed them all away
I remember who tore me apart
And now we're back at the start
The circles under my eyes got darker
The sound of my voice got softer
The sise of my waist got smaller
And my smile
Disappeared
It then leads you to do the thing you never ever thought would happen to you
You talked about it among your friends
Oh I would never want to kill myself
That would never be me
But it does end up being you
You write down ever possible way to die
Section of the ones that case the least pain
It like a fucking game
But instead of having extra lives
You well and truly die
You then write the note
Please Forgive me
Or god forget me
I'm fine
It just a matter of time before I lose my mind
I'm fine
From time to time
I just need you to let me go
So my flaws won't show
So you won't know
I hate me
Every little inch of me
Everything I see
Is a lie
So is my life
And by the time you read this I have killed myself with a knife
Goodbye
We carry these things inside us
That know else can see
They drag us down like anchors
They drown us out at sea
This is what happens day in day out for my kind
People say get help like it going to be a walk in the park
They say they won't tell anyone but then how do you end up in a mental hospital
They say things will be like normal but then why is everyone cautious around you
And explain why you are talking a whole bunch of bs
We know behind your rehearsed speeches and uniform checks
Know wonder the most leading cause of death lately has been suicide
Having people make PowerPoints about suicide prevention and anorexia or depression and anxiety it doesn't change the fact that we all live in fear of being treated differently because there is something wrong with us
Quite frankly it makes it worse
the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
You wish you could just be erased
When you lose faith In yourself
When all the love you put into building your life is torn down
Suicide is all you think about
This is what has happened to me
I would say get help if you have problems but for obvious reasons that impossible
I would want to technically help someone die by saying that but
Yeah
My advice is to talk to someone who is going threw the say thing as you
They won't judge. Neither will I.
-the poems and all this were write by me and will only be shown by me please respect that plagiarism is bad- suicide
