When my parents found out I cut and was suicidal and depressed my mother was kind and understanding where as my father seemed angry like this was my fault and that he was the one that should be upset and he tried to blame each and every possibility to as why I was sad on me wether it was subtle or not it hurt
He said oh your just doing this for attention
You just wanted to try it out it a FAZE
You just wanted to impress your friends
Or your friend who is depressed is rubbing off on you and your not really sad
Do you not understand
DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND
how much pain I'm in
No emotion could describe this
I'm sad confused angry shocked mixing in for seconds at a time and then switching
AND I CANT HANDLE IT
YET I SEEM BLANK
WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO GET YOU TO UNDERSTAND I DON'T KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME
I'm weird
in different
and you would never understand
All you do it tell relatives get them involved to try to get the answer off of me
But every time it come up or I think about I feel like I'm underwater I can't breath
You think this is helping but this is only suffocating me
I feel like a burden because know matter how you try to 'help' I still seem to stay the same
Im weird
Just like everyone says
I'am imperfect
I'am ugly
I'am nothing
Yet I'm still here through all the pain
