Fear
A pit in my stomach like the depths of hell
My mouth a gaping maw filled with the shards of the words I could not say, cutting my tongue to shreds
My hands shake like the bare branches of a tree in a winter storm
Breathe rattling out of my chest, the sound of pills falling into my open palm
Shadows creep into my peripheral vision
Demons and monsters escaping the darkness to feed on my stuttering heart
BOOM BOOM, BOOM BOOM, BOOM BOOM
The only sound ringing through my ears
Blood flowing through my veins, poisoning me from the inside out
I have to let it out, must let it out
Like an oil slick, the black sludge flows down my arm
The pain throbbing behind my eyes, beneath my skin fades, and I feel better
I look down at my wrist and the black ink has stopped
The poison is still inside me
I have to let it out, the pain returns and I open my skin again and again
Until I am no longer human
I become a monster made of scars and poisoned blood.
