Carmen Karma[Adopted by MCR]

Chapter 16-Bright Lights and Blood

"Mr.Way?" A doctor called waking me up from the uncomfortable slumber I was in the old hospital chair. "Yes?" I say standing up shakily. "It's Carmen. Her fever is gone but she's still in a bit of shock" I nodded slightly "What do you mean by shock? What happened?" He sighs "She was panicking. Plus there wasn't much in her system, only the beer you told us she drank, so having a drink of something in that quantity put her stomach into a sort of shocked state." He says reading off a clipboard. I nodded again "So is she healthy?" The doctor goes silent for a moment reading over a few of the papers "In a way yes. She has never been diagnosed with any panic disorder, correct?" I nodded getting slightly anxious.

"That's right." Frank said standing up and walking over to us. "Who are you, sir?" Frank smiles holding out his hand "Frank Iero. Now before anything else can you tell us if Carmen is awake or anything, and can we see her?" I smile slightly hearing Frank sound like a dad for the first time ever. "She is awake but right now he doesn't want anyone in the room. I'm going to have her fill out a few papers to see if she has a panic or anxiety disorder as well to see if there is a possibility of depression. Is that alright Mr.Way?" I nodded. The doctor nodded back "I'll be back out shortly."

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My hospital room is small. Everything is white and bright and make me feel like I'm going to pass out. The doctor and nurses left about 10 minutes ago, saying something about blood work and family. Look at my arms how thin I have gotten. How ill I really feel, I get up going to the large window on the wall next to my bed. I stare and see the tour bus knowing I told the doctor to not let them see me. "I'm sorry" I mumble. "For what Miss Way?" I jump turning around to see the doctor. "Nothing, just talking to myself. Do you need something?" I ask timidly sitting back down on the bed. "Mm, I need you to answer these questions with 100% truth." I nodded taking the clipboard he held out to me. "Can I not do this? These seem personal. Also, tell my...my family that I don't want them here. Tell them to get on the bus. I'm old enough to be on my own." The doctor nods "I will tell them, but not force them. They're eager to see you. I think you should talk with them not me."

15 minutes later I'm filling out the questionnaire and talking, no, staring at the guys with dead, cold eyes. "Need any help doll?" Frank asked coming near me I scooted away shaking my head slightly. "Come on doll say something, we know you can talk." I snap my head towards him "Ever think I don't want to talk to you? Ever think I wanted to be alone for a god damn fucking minute." I say through gritted teeth. He goes and sits next to Gerard after that "Be useful and go give this to the fucking doctor. I'm going back to the bus." I say getting up quickly having Ray lightly push me back down "No you're not. Gerard's mom is coming down here to pick you up. Mikey called her earlier, you need to rest." I look at Gerard and Mikey as the two brothers argue in the corner "If you didn't want me. Then why did you adopt me you fuck faces." The brothers look at me "Carmen we do want you. Please, you have to understand-" Mikey begins "Understand fucking what! God fuck you Mikey and to think I thought of you like a fucking uncle." I get up.

I ran out of the room in the hospital gown they put me in. I saw a few nurses look at me and one pressed a button sending off an alarm I ran faster running down the stairs and out of the building. The pavement hurt my feet and my vision was starting to become blurry. I kept running I could hear nurses and Gerard and everyone yelling for me. Frank was running after me. Hot tears ran down my face, creating a scene of complete chaos. The tour bus was getting closer and so was my hope of leaving the people who care, who will be too hard to leave some other day. I ran past the tour bus I could hear Frank's loud footsteps getting slower and farther away. I ran across the road into an alley and winding myself into the buildings. I was lost but didn't care. The only thing I had to worry about was staying hidden.

The alley is damp and making me freeze. It's been hours but no sign of anyone coming for me. I could hear Gerard and Frank yelling and crying from down the street for a while now. I can't shake a feeling of guilt. I found some back ways to get around the two, meaning I could start walking again. Walking and doing nothing else. I pass the couple of boys I've grown to love and really see as family members. I didn't want to stay and be hurt more but I know leaving has hurt them. "Fuck." I say biting my lip after stepping on a broken bottle. I fall over starting to cry and grab at my foot that is now gushing blood. At this point, I don't even try to be quiet.

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I look at Frank with tears streaming down my face. "What if she's gone forever?" He just simply shake his head "She' not. She-" he begins to say before we hear cries coming from the alley not too far from us. We both look at each other knowing the sound of that cry. "Carmen," I say before running towards the sound of the cry. "Carmen? Carmen is that you? Answer me, baby, come on let me help." I called turning into the alley "Gerard" I hear a small voice croak out "Gerard help me." I run faster towards the noise.

I turn a corner and see Carmen holding her foot and pool of blood. She's sobbing trying to use her hand to stop the bleeding. "Carmen!" I run over and scoop her up "Carmen what happened?" She screams in pain at the sudden movement. Frank runs into us getting a bloody footprint on his chest "Shit Carmen? Gerard?" He looks at Carmen's foot and quickly takes off his jacket wrapping it tightly around her foot. "Don't worry doll everything's gonna be alright. Just stay awake."

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"Carmen you need to keep those eyes open and look alive sunshine." Gerard says in a sing-song tone. "I'm gonna die. God, I'm gonna die, Gerard, I'm so sorry." I cry harder starting to freak out. "Deep breaths doll. You aren't gonna die." Frank said stroking my head softly as he and Gerard ran with me to the hospital. I felt sick at my foot hurt so so bad. I cry harder not knowing what else to do. "Don't let me be gone." I say closing my eyes. "Never doll, just open the beautiful green eyes." I shake my head letting sleep take over me as soon as I saw the bright white lights of the hospital.