Carmen Karma[Adopted by MCR]

Chapter 14- Change of Plans

"Carmen!" Gerard yelled in shock. I jumped and snapped my head towards him. His arms were crossed and he was tapping his foot. "Care to explain the booze?" I shook my head "Nope, I'm good. I'm gonna go back to my bunk and get some sleep." I said getting up, he grabbed my arm "Carmen, you have to tell me. Now." I sighed and sat down at the table again. "I was just bored, plus it's not like it'll kill me." As soon I finished that sentence he went into dad mode. It was awful.

"Carmen Marie, you can't drink. I won't allow it. You'll end up getting a dependence on it especially seeing as you're depressed. If I catch you drinking again I'm gonna have to punish you." I rolled my eyes and flipped him off going back to my bunk "Fuck off its just beer. It won't do shit to me." He came back to my bunk grabbing me out of it. "What the fuck Gerard! Stop!" I said hitting his back. He shook his head and set me down on the couch. "You're gonna drink a water, and then once we stop we are gonna get rid of the beer." He said sort of sourly. I rolled my eyes again "Yeah right. You're the alcoholic, not me." His eyes went wide and he got teary eyed. I sucked in a breath feeling awful, but not apologizing. He left going back to his bunk.

Mikey walked out as soon as Gerard left "What's up with him" he looked at the table, "and the beer?" I sighed "Nothing, just mind your own business, Mikey." I said getting up quickly going the practice room thing and locking the door behind me. I could hear Mikey talking to Gerard trying to figure out what happened, but I didn't care. I sat on the couch and strummed the guitar softly.

Around lunchtime Ray knocked on the door "Hey we made sandwiches if you want one." He said through the door. "Not hungry." I simply answered. I could hear him sigh "Please come out, we all need to talk to you." I crossed my arms "No, leave me in here. I don't want to talk to any of you." That's a lie. I want to talk to Gerard and tell him sorry. Ray groaned "Carmen please just come out or I'm sending Frank and Bob after you. "Let them" is all I said before laying down on the couch.

About 15 minutes later, Bob and Frank, we're pounding on the door making dumb noises and mocking me. "Fuck off!" I screamed grabbing 2 fistfuls of my hair. "Not until you come out!" Frank yelled in the same tone. "I hate you! I hate all of you! Just leave me alone!" Then it all went quiet. I could tell the other guys moved to be outside the door and were all now whispering to each other. "Carmen, come out. Please." I heard Gerard say softly "I'm not hungry, and I don't want to talk to you." he sighed "Please." I sighed opening the door "yeah?" Then everyone hugged me and all started talking.

"So what you're saying is I'm not gonna be on tour with you guys after my birthday?" I said sadly sitting on the floor. "Yeah kid, you've been getting really bad with the whole eating thing so we decided it'd be best if you stayed with Gerard and I's mom. Don't worry though cause we'll be there for a few days until the tour starts again." I started to cry "I don't want to. Please, don't make me." Gerard got down and hugged me "Hey don't worry about it, you'll love her and she'll love you. You can always call and come to the show in Jersey at the end of the tour." I shook my head sadly "You're gonna forget about me." He shook his head once more "We could never. Let's go get you something to eat okay?" I nodded getting up and heading to the kitchen with the guys.

The rest of the day went on as normal, but by the time everyone was asleep I was ready to drink. So I went out to the kitchen, sat at the table, drew a few pictures and drank the rest of the beer in the fridge. I think it was about 5 or 6 cans, maybe a few more. I laughed finishing the last can and getting up to perform my own quiet show on the table. I danced around spinning and jumping until I lost balance and fell over "Shit" I groaned. One by one the guys came out into the kitchen causing me to sigh "heya fellas. How's it goin?" I asked slurring my words. Frank sighed starting to clean up the cans "Carmen, I thought Gerard talked to you about this." Gerard sighed "I did." He picked me up "You okay? Nothing hurts?" I shook my head smiling and closing my eyes " I'm a-okay!" He nodded "And you're also gonna go to sleep." I nodded feeling him set me in my bunk and then get in the bunk with me "You're gonna stay with me and get some sleep okay?" I nodded "nigh," I said passing out while curling up with a blanket.