Biggest mistake (Complete)

Chapter 28

*hey guys, be aware this is more of a filler chapter*

The way back to my place was depressing. We both really hoped that the guys would show, but we made a promise to ourselves and each other that it's over between us. This made the car ride silent, knowing that we need to move on again, even though I wasn't even close to back with Spencer, but all that progress is gone.

Nick is staying quiet, probably knowing that now isn't the time to speak. I just wish that tonight could be the three of us and Erica, back to how it was.

We get to our place and we decided to take the mattresses from Nick and mines bed and bring them to the living room floor, pushing the couch back so they could fit in front of the tv, so we could sleep in the living room together.

I feel betrayed, and just hurt, but I can't let myself go back down that road again, and by looking at Kayla, I can tell she feels the same way, but also really mad. Not that I'm not mad, but she is so much more noticeable.

Looking from one another, a silent decision that we aren't going to talk about what had happened is agreed upon, and the night of getting pizza, ice cream and alcohol as well as face masks and Netflix's has begun.

With all the turmoil of emotions, no matter how recent, I'm repressing them until tomorrow, when I have more time to digest what's happened.

I keep thinking about Kyle, and how he would be here for me, and while I'm happy to be here with my twin and Nick, I really wish I had the man who protected me so much.

It also makes me wonder if he knew I was adopted. I mean he always treated me with love and support, and I know he wouldn't have treated me differently even if he had known. If he were here, he would have treated Kayla the same, and welcomed her in the family with open arms just like my, well now our parents.

Looking back on everything that has happened since my divorce, I have found my real family. My parents, Kyle, Nick, Erica, John and Kayla. I have added so many people who are such important people to me. This is going to be hard, but I have them and I know this time it'll be easier to get over Spencer.

I look at my twin and best friend, and see them cuddled together, and I feel better in general. As much as this situation is awful, we are going to get through this together. I don't know what's going on with my birth parents, but I know I will fight to make sure they won't hurt anyone. I need to learn skills to keep everyone safe. I just wish I knew more about what we're dealing with.

But that's tomorrow, tonight it's about fun, because life is about to get harder.