Obsessively. (Shikamaru Fanfic)

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The next two weeks were hell for me. I barely slept a wink and if I did get sleep it was for ten minutes and then I'd wake up screaming. I couldn't get the images of Shikamaru out of my head and I  could tell it was affecting him as well. He wanted to help me but he didn't  see what I saw. He didn't see the blood...so much blood.
Tsunade-sama was gonna start me on medication to help with the sleeping but I didn't think that would help at all. It just kept me in the dreams.

I was staring out of the hospital window, yes hospital. I was to stay here because I wasn't eating as well. I tried but i couldn't keep it down. I felt sick Everytime something touched my tongue. Like I was swallowing blood

I watched as some kids played catch on the road and smiled at how carefree they were. Shikamaru was out in the corridor with Tsunade probably discussing what to do with me.

"Hi Kakashi." I said, not looking away from the kids as the silver haired man appeared in my room.

"Yo." I looked at him to see him pulling his mask down and sitting at the end of my bed.

"How are you holding up?" He already knew the answer but still asked.

"I don't know..." I turned and continued to watch the kids play, laughing with each other.

"it's normal to get nightmares about these kind of things. They're scary" he didn't look at me as he said the sentence but I knew he was telling me I'm going to be okay.

"I can't get it out of my head..." I whispered looking down at my hands that were covered in Shikamaru' non-existent blood.

"It takes time, but trust me it gets easier to deal with as you try. You're gonna be okay." I looked up at him to see him looking at me. He had went through this after losing me and suddenly I felt guilty. It must've been so hard.

"Hey don't be feeling guilty for something you didn't do. Besides I'm fine, just knowing you're okay now. I can finally move on from it." I smiled at him feeling thankful.

"Shikamaru... you two are good for each other. I'm happy he was the one you picked to replace all of this." He gestured brightening the mood. I chuckled making him smile.

"You'll get better in no time. Just take it day by day." He ruffled my hair as Tsunade walked in with my boyfriend. Shikamaru took one look at my smile and grinned widely. I felt a blush spread across my cheek as he continued to stare at me.

"Well I'm off now. Shikamaru, kami" he had his mask back on and I smiled up at him.

"Thank you." I said gratefully. I actually felt a little better after our talk.

"Anytime." He was gone in a second. I looked up at Shikamaru who had sat where Kakashi just was and blushed again. I didn't even know why I was feeling shy.

"You okay?" He was smiling at me something I hadn't seen since this whole thing happened.

"I'm going to be." I smiled, laughing as he tackled me into a hug placing kisses across my face. I held him tight.

"Umm im still here." Shikamaru pulled away going red in the face as I stared at him with a love filled gaze. God was on my side when he let me keep Shikamaru.

My stomach decided to awaken from it's slumber as it growled loudly making Shikamaru smile again.

"I'll go get you something to eat right now." He kissed me quickly running out of the room making me feel guilty he must've worried a lot. When he should be worried about himself.

"He's just happy you're okay." I nodded smiling. Thanks to everyone I will be fine.

..... ( A few weeks have passed )