Obsessively. (Shikamaru Fanfic)

eight.

We were a little ways out of the village. Izumu and Kotestu not sure what they should do but just nodded at Kakashi as he walked me down a path leading to a small lake. The memory of us relaxing here after missions swam through my head as I lowered myself onto a rock.

"You have nothing to be embarrassed about" he said after awhile adding to my embarrassment, unintentionally.

"I'm such an idiot..."

"You're not an idiot."

"I just want to punch myself. I don't get why a kiss on the cheek hurts."

"It's because you love the bastard." I winced at his choice of name but stopped. Had my feelings grown into actual love? Is that why my heart shattered over the thought of Shikamaru with somebody else?

"It's not his fault he doesn't feel the same as I ...do." I said ignoring his look of bewilderment. I couldn't force anyone to feel.

I hugged my knees staring out at the lake, my cheeks still burning and I just wanted to bury myself and hide. I felt angry that I believed he liked me the same. I shouldn't of assumed. Kakashi sat with me and i felt a little better. Maybe an hour passed by and it was quite peaceful. Out of nowhere Kakashi got up and punched the huge tree next to us shattering it with his chidori.

"Kakashi?" He didn't respond just sat on the ground again like nothing happened.

"He likes you." I turned away cheeks going red. What is he saying? Did he not witness the rejection everyone else saw?

"He honestly does. He pushed her away when you left.. he was gonna come after you but I punched him." He glared out at the lake as if he hated the calm water.

"I was so angry when I saw him with her.... I couldn't not land one on him. Sorry." He didn't seem at all sorry and I didn't know what to think. Shikamaru didn't look like he was pushing her away and his coldness towards me was opposite of liking me. He seemed to sense my unsureness.

"You've always been a little slow when it comes to someone else's affection towards you.... Trust me I can tell. I mean he was basically glaring daggers at me when I was in the office." He chuckled, sighing letting it go silent again. I didn't know what to do.

Shikamaru didn't exactly look pleased by my presence. I sighed laying my head against my leg. I just felt embarrassed. Kakashi pulled his mask up suddenly.

"Kakashi-san." A voice interrupted the quiet. I looked back to see an anbu I was still a little weary about the masks but after I remembered stuff I was less scared of the ninjas. Knowing that Kakashi use to be one.

"I know. We'll be back soon." He said not even needing to hear anything from the guy. The anbu dissappeared after Kakashi dismissed him. It was getting cold out.

"Tsunade wants us back... She's worried about you." I sighed ignoring my thoughts for the time being. Kakashi offered me his hands and I let a small smile grace my lips.

He pulled his mask down leaning forward and kissing my forehead. The action made my cheeks heat.

"You're gonna be okay Kam...Kira sorry." He sighed.

"You can call me Kami if you want. I mean it's my name and it's what you're use to." He seemed to decide something before  smiling a genuine smile.

"Kami. Let's get ya home."

......

Tsunade was in a real mood when I made to her office again. Going on and on about worrying her.

There was no one but a red haired guy in there when me and Kakashi entered. I recognised him as one of the people who were in the office. He stepped up to me ignoring Kakashi.