10 things I want to do before I die

3 "Visit my parents and come to terms with my father."

A few days later, I received a phone call from a doctor that the deadline for my additional tests is next week. I thanked him for the information and disconnected.

Of course, after this information I got huge dose of nerves - I started to panic. Fasted heartbeat, rapid, heavy breathing and stress convulsions. It took me half an hour to calm down and go back to cooking dinner.

When I finished cooking dinner, I made a coffee and sat on the kitchen table. I took a deep breath as I pulled a piece of paper out of my purser - my 10 things to do list. I grabbed a pen and checked point 1 and 2. I read point 3 and made a dot next to it.

I haven't talked to my father for a months. I talk with my mother from time to time over the phone, but since my father found out I was pregnant with FP, he didn't want to know me and even heard me. Until now, it hurt me, but I decided that in the cause of my death, I would like to leave this world calm, reconciled with my loved ones.

I grabbed the phone and chose FP's number. After two signals he picked up.

"Hello, beauty" he said and I smiled.

"Hello, lover boy" I looked at my list. "Well are you ready for point there?"

"Hell Yes. Tell me what it is" He said curiously.

"Visit my parents and come to terms with my father." I read and he sighed heavily.

"Are you ready to confront your father, Alice?" he sounds angry when he said word "father".

FP and my father never liked each other. When I started dating FP and I joined the Southside Serpents gang my father became more agressive to me. Every time he saw me with FP he told me always the same thing "This boy is a walking trouble. You will be sufer because of him. He'll hurt you". Well, FP was a walking trouble.

He often got into fights, drank alcohol and landed in jail because of vandalism. In addition, he did improper interests with Ghulies related to drug trafficking. I never liked it because I was afraid of FP.

Then I suffered bacause of him. I suffered when he treated our relationship as a temporary entertainment and left me for some loose slut from Vixens - Gladys Jones.

And he hurt me when he stopped fighting for our relationship and pretended he didn't know me. My father was right but I was too proud to admit it.

"Babe, are you there?" I heard his voice and I back to reality.

"Yes, sorry, I was thinking about... Nevermind" I sighed. "Wait. Did you call me babe?" I asked.

"Well, Yes. I'm sorry, Alice. It was out of my control"

"I'm not mad at you. You can call me babe everytime you like" I smiled and he laughed.

"Okey, then, babe" This time I laughed. "When do you want to visit your parents?"

"Well, I don't know" I sighed and sipped my coffee.

"Maybe tomorrow?" he asked and I closed my eyes for a while. "I can take a few days off in my job. Pop will understand this"

"You can really do this for me?" I Was surprised by his words.

"Yes. It will be a pleasure to visit your parents with you and... I finally be able to get some rest out of this stupid work"

"Why didn't you change the job then?"

"Alice. There isn't any good job for me in Riverdale. I have to work at Pop's to give my son a decent life which I didn't have."

"If you need my help, FP. If you need something you can always call me. I will help you. You know about it"

"I know, Alice. Thank you"