10 things I want to do before I die

10 "Tell FP that I love him."

After the party ended, I stayed in Whyte Wyrm to clean up. FP tried to distract me from this idea, but I wanted to take my thoughts and cleaning was the only good option.

"Do you need my help?" he asked when we were alone.I didn't respond completely to his words because I was thinking about tomorrow. I started collecting one-off cake trays and throwing them in a bin. "Alice" FP said louder and I looked at him.

"Hm, did you say something?" I asked, and he nodded.

"Yes, I wanted to know whether to help you"

"you can help me."

I said, and my voice trembled. "In this ... and in this ..." I added and put my hand to my lips. I tightened my eyelids when I felt tears in my eyes. I wanted to be strong. I wanted to show FP that I will manage.

"Honey" FP said and embraced me. "Don't think about it" began to stroke my cheek.

"I don't think," I whispered and looked into his eyes. "Just something inside me goes crazy, I feel uncertainty and it destroys me"

"I understand your pain, I know how you feel." FP kissed me on the forehead. "Come on, let's lay on the couch and clean up afterwards," he said and we walked towards his office.

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I got up in the morning and left Whyte Wyrm without goodbye. I went home to get ready for an appointment. Betty was in the living room, who when she saw me immediately hugged me.

"I didn't sleep all night," she whispered. "I am so afraid"

"Don't be afraid, Betty" I whispered and stroked her cheek. "I'm going to take a bath and change," I went to my bedroom to undress and then I went to showers.

I released a warm stream of water and stood under it, looking down at my feet. I started to breathe deeply to calm my body and relax a bit. However, it didn't help me. At the moment I missed FP, who would embrace me tightly, kiss me passionately and make love to me in the shower, leading me to lose my senses.

I clenched my hands into fists and closed my eyes. I straightened up, took a deep breath and looked ahead.

"I won't give up" with this conviction I got out of the shower and quickly dressed.

When I was ready, I went to the living room with a smile on my face. It has been my real smile for a few weeks.

"I'm going, Betty," I said and hugged my daughter. Deep down, I felt that everything will be fine.

"I keep my fingers crossed," she answered and kissed me on the cheek.

I left the house and got in the car. When I left the driveway and went straight to the hospital, I turned on the radio. After a while, the song Highway to hell was heard in the car. Perfect timing!

I'm on the highway to hell
On the highway to hell

Highway to hell
I'm on the highway to hell

"No stop signs, speed limit nobody's gonna slow me down... Like a wheel gonna spin it... Nobody's gonna mess me around..."

I started to sing, but I shut up when I heard the police horn. 

Really?

With a sigh, I stopped on the side of the road and turned on the emergency lights. I opened the window and looked at the policeman.

"Hi, Tom" I said with a smile. "Why did you stop me?"

"Hi, Alice," he replied. "You have exceeded your speed by about thirty kilometers, do you realize?" frowned.