you deserve better (5SOS)

Chapter 8: Love never dies

Noelle's POV

"I've missed you Tay". People walking by probably thought I was crazy for talking to a grave but I never cared. He was my best friend, he still is. I told him everything. I told him about the tour, I told him about Sky, everything that was going on I told him. If felt good to get it off my chest to him. When I talk to him it's almost as if he's there with me. I was there for at least an hour before I left. The girls left so I was walking home alone. I decided to take the long way to clear my head. The long way would take me 30 minutes to get home so I pulled out my earbuds. I walked down the hidden path while I listened to the lyrics of a song.

"And i'd give up forever to touch you, cause I know that you feel me somehow. Your the closest to heaven, that I'll ever be and I don't wanna go home right now"....

That used to be Tay and I's song. Before you get the wrong impression we were just friends. He died when I was 13. We became best friends when we were 4, in the nursery. I know it sounds stupid but I had the BIGGEST crush on him when we were younger. But, it was different back then, we were different. I wasn't paying attention and accidentally bumped into somebody.

"Oh I'm sorr-, Clara! I-it's nice to see you". Clara was Taylor's older Sister.

" Noelle, I called the house, Luke told me you'd be here. I have something for you. Something Tay was supposed to give you a long time ago".

She handed me a piece of folded up notebook with the word " Noe Noe" on it. That was the nickname he gave me.

"Hey look, I have to run, but don't worry. I didn't read it. I hope it gives you some closure. I need to get back. check on ya soon. Bye Noelle. Before I go, if you want later stop bye at the house we found some kind of a tape he left for you. My guess is it's that song he constantly played".

And with that she was gone. I texted Luke and the girls that I would be late. They knew where I was so I was okay.

I sat down at a close by bench and slowly opened up the letter. I cringed when I say the date he wrote it. June 17th. The day before he died. The old paper was stained with teardrops of either Clara or him the day he wrote it.

"Dear, Noe Noe.

I love you. I don't care what anybody else says, We've been best friends for almost 10 years. That's amazing, but I want more. I can honestly say you are the best thing that could've ever happened to me. But I know you'll be gone soon. Don't get me wrong I'm extremely proud of Luke and the guys. But I will miss you. I wouldn't be surprised if you don't call me again. I also wouldn't be surprised if you hated me after this. But it was killing me to look you straight in the eye and hear you call me your "best friend". I'll be waiting for you when you get back. We can discuss the topic of "us" then. I know your brother would be pissed. But I'm willing to risk everything for you and I. I know were only 13 but if I don't do this now I never will. See you soon

XoXo

Tay Tay.

I fell apart. He loved me. I collapsed into a ball on the ground and just balled. I was such an emotional reck. Luke cam after me. I didn't realize it but it was getting dark soon. He picked me up and carried me to his car. The entire way I clutched the note in my hand yelling,

"He loved me".

" I know". Luke whispered to me. The car ride was silent. (Other than my uncontrollable sobs.) When we got back to the house I ran to hug the girls. They knew exactly what was going on. Unfortunately this has happened a few times before. As we talked in my room my father and brother decided it would be best for the girls to leave. He called their parents and simply said, " it happened again". Ten minutes later we were hugging and they were gone. I felt like shit that night.

"Hey, we need to talk". Luke said walking in.

" I'm sorry the girls left but you are way to emotionally unstable. Look, nobody took his death harder than you. While on tour I hired a doctor to talk to you about what happened. I'm worried. You can't keep all of your emotions locked up inside you forever".

We stayed up and watched movies on the couch together. It was nice. I woke up the next morning wrapped in my brothers arms still on the couch. It was the day we left. I drug myself off the couch and into the shower. It was 10:00. By the time I was out of the shower Luke was up and getting ready. We left for the plane am hour later. I fell asleep next to my brother as always and drifted into a deep sleep.

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A/N: Again, sorry about only putting Noelle's POV but I felt it was right in this situation. What do you guys think ? Also I have a question... What should Noelle and Sky's ship name be ??? let me know in the comments again thanks for reading I'll have a full character list up tomorrow. Byeeeeee ;)