Messing with Magcon Boys.

Brothers know best?

I closed my eyes readying myself for this conversation I mean I knew it was going to happen just not this soon

"Oh my god Audrey your crying whats wrong what happened?" he asked almost sounding worried

I laughed slightly at how hard he was trying to make me think he cares.

I flinched back as he went to wipe the tear stains off my face that I neglected to wipe away

No. No he does not get to wipe away the tears he caused.

I shook my head "don't worry about it" I snapped trying to move around him but he walked in front of me blocking me again

I let out an irritated breath and looked up at him looking into his eyes which made mine water more and threaten to pour out again

"What's the matter?" he asked as if he was honestly concerned

I took a deep breath seriously who does he think he is?

"What's the matter?" I screamed taking a few steps back "really can you really ask me that?" I screamed walking towards him again a sob escaping my lips " " You Nash. You're the matter. " I screamed tears were now really falling so fast that I could barely see

Do you know how hard it is to see the person your in love with just stand there and look at you and pretend to care? How much it hurts to know that they honestly don't love you back and that they would go to the existent of pretending to care just so that they wouldn't actually have to... Well if you haven't it hurts...a lot...

Wait love?

I love him?

Oh great, fucking great. What a great time to realize thus Audrey!

He looked at me confused causing me to just shake my head and back away

"You'll just never get enough will you?" I asked in a quiet voice...not even trying to cover up the pain that it held and the emotions I was feeling "you can go now Nash, I hope you have a blast over this. Congratulations...you won." I said getting louder every time I paused "you broken me...and you wanna know what...it honestly fucking hurts because I thought you cared! But I hope you have a nice life...because I'm DONE trying to be in it" I said turning around and I could literally feel my chest ache from my heart breaking as I walked away

"Audrey wait!" he screamed after me "your the one leaving here not me!" he said in a angry tone

"Yeah and your the one letting me" I said turning back around and walking through the front doors towards the bus we were leaving in

I slammed my fist down on my suitcase cover as hard as I could and grabbed the clothing I had picked out so I didn't have to sleep in these uncomfortable clothes

I pulled the dress over my head so I was just in my bra and underwear then grabbed the big comfy shirt I had from before and threw it on over my head when someone cleared there throat from behind me

Startled I jumped and whipped around to see Matt standing there I smiled up at him and he smiled back at me and gestured for me to give him a hug I walked over to him and sank into his arms

Oh my god you have no idea how much I loved Matt for everything, for being my brother, for being so nice to me, for loving me even after I make mistakes just for being him...

After a few seconds I started crying and he led me the the couch thing and we sat down and I curled up into his side and he just let me cry...

Cry for missing home, cry for being hurt, cry for loving Nash, cry for fighting with him all the time, just cry.

After a few minuets I was officially done crying and officially loved my brother to death, not that I didn't before.

"Are you okay?" he asked in a soft voice that had reminded me so much of dad

I nodded "no, but I will be. Someday. Thank-you for you know letting me cry " I said quietly "I love you no matter how little I say it, I really do love you" I said looking up at him

He smiled "I know and I love you to I just want you to be happy" he said hugging me again I hugged him back and after a few seconds he got up and left saying he had to get back so that he could meet the fans or else they would be pissed and stuff so I told him to just go and after a couple minuets of him asking if I was okay and if It was cool to leave he finally did

Psh damn him always thinking about me first.

I loved his overbearingness though he's so... Matt...he just always knew when something's wrong or when I just need a hug and yeah

After a few minuets I finally just went and laid down and played on my phone for a few hours before we had to go back on the road and shit we were almost done with the tour which was both sad and exciting and we'd have to start doing online a school soon

With thoughts of how I'm going to live with Nash still on the bus and how I'm going to stand seeing him with other girls and not falling apart every time...I fell  into a light sad sleep.

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