Unedited.
Songs for the chapter:
Mrs. All American - 5sos
Does He Know- One Direction
Up - Justin Bieber ft Chris Brown
Maria - Justin Bieber
American Idiot - 5sos cover
U - Austin Mahone
Justin's POV
After I left Hannah's house I went home to work on some stuff. The first thing I have to work on is how to get Katy to stop bothering me. Oh yeah, for those of you who don't know Katy she's the girl I got pregnant. Also the girl that I told Fredo about at the album release party. I've been helping her out with her baby ever since. I know, stupid right? I help out a random girl I got pregnant but not my fiancé?
Anyways, we've been dating I guess you could say. I'm not in love with her and I know she's not in love with me. So why are we together? I honestly have no idea. I do know for a fact I wasn't totally in the right state of mind. I partied and had one night stands all the time. I wasn't really sober all the time.
Fredo was the one who told me to get help. I went to some of his therapy sessions. Although, I was hungover so I didn't really care or pay attention to any of them.
One thing I do know is that I made a mistake. I made a huge mistake. I don't think Hannah will ever forgive for that either. I mean what was I thinking? Going to parties and getting drunk was fun? At the time I did think it was. But now that I look back on it it was a total fucking waste of my time. Right now, I could be married to Hannah, have a nice house, taking care of our child together.
But no, I had to be the little fuck up everyone thought I was and fuck that up too. I can't ever win.
My thoughts were interrupted when I pulled into the driveway of my house. Telling by how the lights are still on in the house, Katy is still up.
I park the car in the driveway and was inside through the garage door.
"HeyKaty I'm home." I shouted. Then I heard patting of feet which meant it was probably Emily, Katy's baby. "Hey Em, where's mom?" I asked her picking her up and setting her on my hip, She points upstairs. I head up the stairs into our bedroom. Since the light was on and the door was open I knew she was in there.
"Hey Justin." She greets me taking Emily from my hands and setting her down to go play.
"Hey..." I trailed off. How am I going to bring the conversation up? "Um... I gotta talk to you about something." I scratch the back of my neck and look at my feet.
"What is it?" She asks me.
"Well, I don't really know how to tell you but.. I wanna breakup." I tell her looking into her eyes.
She gasps," why? what's wrong?" she asks.
"You know the girl I told you about? Before all this and how I was engaged?" I tell her, she nods. "Well I found her today. And she told me we can start over. That she will try and regain my trust and love. She's the one I've always loved. I don't really know how to express this in words but I feel like it should be her I'm with and spend my life with. I mean, she was my fiancé and instead of being with her I was with you."
About five minutes went by and she still hasn't said anything.
"Say something." I tell her.
"I... I don't know what to say. You just practically told me that what we had was fake. That you were faking it all. You lead me on thinking you loved me and we could start a family. But it was a lie. HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO SOMEONE?" She yelled in my face.
"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to! its not like I planned any of this. I love her with all of my heart. I've never loved anyone else the way I've love her. What I did to we to drag her away from me was terrible. I needed a wake up call and seeing we just gave me one. I need to be with her. Not want, need."
"You're a bitch you know that? You're a real go damn bitch for dragging me on like that." She folded her arms across her chest and looked down at her feet. "If you don't want to be together fine. I wouldn't want to be with someone who doesn't love me anyways." She is taking this too well. "But... What am I supposed to do about Emily? Huh? I can't just leave and tell her she can't see you ever again."
I completely forgot about Emily. Oh my god. How can I be so stupid?
"Oh my god." I groan. "I forgot about her. I mean, she can still see me. I don't know, this is hard." I think for a couple minutes trying to think of some way to solve this. "How about I see her on weekends? She can come over and see me on the weekends or every other weekend and the rest of the time you have her. Is that good?" I tell her.
"Yeah, I guess that's okay." She sniffs. I haven't noticed that she's been crying until now.
"Katy, I'm really sorry." I walk over to her and hug her. "I'm really sorry for this. I just... I can't keep going on with this relationship if I love someone else. It wouldn't be fair to you or Emily. Maybe someday you can find a man who will love you more than I ever will. Okay?" I look down to her.
She nods, "okay. I forgive you Justin. By the way, what's her name?" She asks.
"Hannah." I tell her. She nods then tightens her hug and then lets go.
"When do you want me to leave?" She asks.
"Oh no no. You don't have to leave. You can stay here it's the least I can do. I'll find somewhere else to live in the mean time while I get Hannah to fall back in love with me."
"Are you sure? I mean, it's no problem for me to just pack up and go."
"Katy!" I raise my voice then start chuckling, "its okay! I can't just tell you to move out. It'd be a really dick move of me."
"Okay, thank you Justin." She kisses my cheek and then leaves the room.
That went, surprisingly, really well. I hope she can find someone who loves her and can care for her like I can't. And can care for Emily better than me and can support them better too.
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Midnight rolls around and I finally packed all of my shit. I put it all in the car and head back into the house to stay over night before I leave tomorrow.
I called Fredo while I was packing I told him everything and asked if I could stay with him for a while. Of course, being the nice guy he is, said yes.
The only thing I'm worried about is that Hannah won't take me back. That she will just friend zone me and that's all I'll ever be to her. I want to be so much more than that. I want to be able to kiss her, cuddle her, sleep with her, everything that I did before I screwed it up.
That's what I fall asleep to. Me thinking of her and the times when we were together and happy.
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