I may have made a few mistakes during the first part of writing about Alex. It wasn't rape, I did want it, but only because he wanted it. Before I started dating him I was talking to my best friend and I had said how it wasn't possible to fall in love with your first boyfriend. I legitimately did fall in love with him though, at least, after a while I did. He had said that he loved me within the first month of dating and I thought I meant it when I said it back but, I just enjoyed having someone that I loved. After about 2 months or so I was truly in love with him though.
Him and I started dating last year in late May and broke up in mid October. We dated for 5 months. He was the first guy I ever kissed, now I have kissed 11 people, had sex with 2, given nudes to 2 (not the same 2), felt up and been felt up and I've been in about 5 relationships. He told me that he's sorry for making me like this and I said that it wasn't his fault but if I'm being honest, I do blame him. The first time I let him finger me was during the summer, I had come home for a couple days so we went to a movie for a date. He fingered me in the theatre, it was actually kinda funny, I ended up queefing XD it was really embarrassing.
The first time I gave him a blowjob was just me wanting to see his dick and then I just put it in my mouth and I didn't even think. I just knew that he would want a blowjob and so I gave him one, he didn't even ask for one.
When we broke up, I had cheated on him. I made out with a guy from my new school and then I told my boyfriend and he got very upset. We didn't break up that very day but you could tell that he wanted to break it off. I would have understood if he had then but he didn't, I was very glad.
Around our 3 or 4 month mark he had broken up with me the first time, I don't remember why but I threw the roses he got my into what I thaught was my garbage then cried myself to sleep, the next day my mom woke me up and asked why there was roses all over my floor. I didn't admit that we had broken up until later that day when she was getting mad at me for being bitchy that day. We got back together later that day, my mom wasn't happy when we got back together.
From the very beginning, my parents didn't like him. When he would talk they didn't believe a word that he would say by how unlikely what he said was. He would talk about something amazing and slightly believable then add something even less believable to it and so on till they didn't believe a word that he said. Silly me still believed him.
During our relationship, he had this really attractive friend. He would tell me how great her ass was and her boobs and how she was a ginger which is the hottest type of girl and so on. He asked me if she could join us in a three way and I said maybe after you and I have had sex a couple times because this girl was actually really nice and very attractive.
When we were together he hated my friends, he wanted to spend time with me so he would have me eat lunch with him and his friends and if he was ever with/near my friends he would stay silent then insult them afterwords. All his friends were girls and I'll be honest, I was jealous and I see no problem with that. If someone is jealous then it means that they care about you and don't want to lose said person.
While with Alex I was lying to my parents, a lot. A couple days before we broke up, for good, my stepdad found nudes of me that I had sent to Alex. They grounded me for 3 weeks and so I said that I could handle that, he then moved it up to 3 months, I said that wasn't too bad so he upped it to 6 months. The next day Alex broke up with me.
