The Love That Saved a Life

Chapter 1

The Walkout

  I can't think about anything else. All I can think about was the way I left. The way I walked out of his life.

     "I can't believe you! Going to him instead of me, your BOYFRIEND! What the hell, Kels? Why didn't you come to me?" He screeches.

     "Because he's my best friend! You go to yours don't you?!" He starts to object, "no, DON'T speak. It's my turn. You know you go to your best friend more than me. Hell, the way she looks at you says it all."

     "Are you telling me that she secretly has a crush on me?! Because she doesn't! She's my best friend and she's my sister!"

      "Jeremy, you are so full of crap. I can tell that you have feelings for her. Your only happy around her," I stuttered, "Jeremy, I know you don't love me," he wipes away the tears from my cheeks, "I can tell. . . The way you say it. . . It's distant. . . When I first told you, you looked hurt. Kind of how you do now. I'm sorry it took me so long to say this. I love you, I do. But I'm not so sure that you love me."

       "You doubt me?" I nod, "Kelsey, I've always loved you."

       "You never even kissed me," I whisper, "you told me how much you wanted to. And then at the movies you were about to close the space between us. . . But then you noticed Abby and pulled away like nothing happened. So yes, I doubt you."

      "I never kissed you because I was afraid. You wanted me too?"

      "Yes. I did. I do. But now- . . . Yes."

      "Okay," he awkwardly bends down so that his face is at a slant above mine and leans in.

      The moment our lips touch I think, this is what you wanted. This is what you said you wanted. So why do you feel like you don't?

      "What?" He asks me.

      "This doesn't feel right now," I say through my tears, "I'm sorry. . ."

      "What do you mean?"

      "I love you, but right now. .  . After what just happened. . . I don't know. . ." God, this is hard.

      "Your over analyzing things again. I saw him hug you, then I watched you hug him. There is definitely something going on and I don't like it. I don't like it at all." His lips quiver as he tries not to cry. I don't blame him.

     "Really? After all that! Your just gonna kiss me and then throw me away like that? Am I just a toy to you?" I scream as I walk away from him.

      "I love you, Jeremy," I whisper before trying to leave the parking lot.

      Do I actually love him?

      "I love you, Kelsey," I hear him whisper back, "Kelsey? Before you go, can I ask you something?" He asks before I make it to my car.

      "What else do you want from me?" I say, my voice breaking with every second I stand there, wanting to get the hell out of here. Out of this place.

      "Why do you doubt me?"