TRIGGER WARNING! I will put • where it starts and where it ends.
Leave Me Alone
I hear the door bell ring and automatically know who it is.
"Kelsey! Come get the door!" Dad yells. I haven't heard him talk to me in weeks.
"So now you'll talk to me. How convenient." I roll my eyes.
"Shut up and get the damn door."
I hide my blade and grab my jacket before running downstairs to get the door.
I open the door, and there he is. I notice him shivering but I can't tell if he's cold or anxious.
"Come in," I say, grabbing his wrist and pulling him up to my room.
"Stephen... I'm sorry..." I say before I lose it.
Before he says anything he pulls me into a hug, "stop. Don't say that anymore tonight."
"No promises."
"Huh. Your different than you were three months ago."
"Hm and I wonder why...?"
"Kelsey..."
"What?"
"I love you. And I know I shouldn't have reacted that way."
"I get it. I mean, what kind of girlfriend goes around letting her EX kiss her?"
"Let?"
"That's not what I mean."
"Then what do you mean?"
"I mean I froze up and didn't tell him to stop. I could've backed away, but I didn't. I couldn't"
"I'm not saying that what happened is okay, but I want you to know that I'm not mad at you. He's the one that I'm pissed at. I'm going to have a nice little conversation with him later." He winks.
"You know, if I were anyone else they'd think your gay because of that."
"Guess I'm lucky then."
"sure," I roll my eyes.
•trigger warning starts here•
I move my arms so that the cuts aren't rubbing up against any fabric.
He must notice because he says, "hey are you okay?"
I slowly nod and remember that my blade is still under my bed covered in my blood.
I move my arms again and the cuts I made start to sting.
Goddammit, Kelsey. You said you wouldn't cut, I think to myself, he wasn't talking to you, but that doesn't mean it's okay that you did it.
"Kelsey what did you do?" He asks me.
When I don't respond he gently grabs my arm and pulls my arm out of the sleeve.
"Goddammit, Kelsey. Why?!" He asks.
"I don't want to live any longer, okay? I'm sick of everything," I cry.
"You weren't talking to me, Steph. Your the only reason I stayed alive! And now your gone and no longer mine! You don't have to forgive me, just please don't forget me," I say quietly.
"Your not leaving this world. I won't let you. You can't do that to all the people that love you. Your life is yours but it's not yours to take!" He softly yells.
"Please leave me alone!"
"Kelsey you know I can't do that..." his voice cracks, "Your to fucking important. I won't let you do it. I will stay with you forever if I have to. But I will NEVER let you die! EVER!"
"Fine, waste your time. But I warned you..."
"It's not wasting my time if I'm saving the life of the girl I love."
And with that he gets up and walks out the door.
When I hear his car drive away, I pick my blade back up and continue what I was doing.
"Your a worthless nothing, don't think your not. It's time for you to die..."
•trigger warning ends here for now•
A/N:
Do you think she lives? Or do you think she ends up giving in to all the depressing shit that happens?
~lazyjellybean
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The Love That Saved a Life
Teen Fiction"Why are you here, Kelsey?" Tamara says worriedly. Tamara's parents are my parents best friends. They all grew up together here in this place. "I need you to give this to Steph," I hand her the sealed envelope I've had ready for months...
