We Are Damaged /A Creek fanfic/

I - Deal

Morning. I'm so tired. I slept like crap as always.

"Morning." Craig said to me. He just woke up as well. We both looked at the clock: 8:06 AM.

"Good morning." I put on a tired smile. He smiled back but I had a feeling he didn't really mean it. "Do you have your sleep schedule messed up too?"

He nodded silently. I don't like the silence. It makes me nervous and upset, no matter how much I try, I get so anxious at things.

I just want to know what's bothering him, I care so much... but he seems so cold. It hurts to see him like this, I have so many things to tell him.

"Craig." I blurted out without thinking.

He looked at me, expecting a question.

"Shoot." He said. I gulped. I looked around, we were in a separate room, the others slept in other bedrooms as there are like one hundred of them.

"I... Can I vent?" I asked. He looked at me with confusion.

"Well.. sure." He replied simply.

I took a deep breath. I.. I can do this.

"..." My breath hitched and I teared up.

"Tweek?" Craig shook me out.

"Y-yeah?"

He sighed. "Do you take medication?"

"Wh-what?"

"Pills. For your mood swings." Craig said silently.

How does he.. unless he needs to as well.. does he need antidepressants?

"Y-yes. I take mood stabilizers. They don't usually work though, so my psychiatrist will prescribe me another type." I admitted.

Silence. We sat in front of each other, half a meter away from the other. He seemed to be thinking. Like he was contemplating on something.

"I take antidepressants." He suddenly spoke.

"Y-you do?"

He nodded. Then, he looked away. I scooted closer to catch his attention.

"C-craig.. could we possibly..?"

"H-hang out?" I finished, ignoring my paranoid thoughts.

He rubbed the back of his scalp, clearly thinking. I hope he says-

"Yeah." 

"You sure?" I asked carefully.

He smiled sadly. "I shouldn't be alone. Same for you, so.. we could help each other out."

I smiled back, we both had broken smiles but.. I didn't mind.

"We should have breakfast and take some pills." He stood up and handed me his hand. I took it.

We were dining silently when Clyde came out, yawning and stretching.

"Hey dudes!" He said while smiling.

We both greeted him in unison. He sat down and poured some cereal for himself. We were quiet so Clyde took the lead.

"Did you guys sleep well? Jimmy slept like a rock."

"Yeah." Craig lied. I tried nodding with some emotion so Clyde would be fine.

"Yup! What time is it?" I asked while smiling.

Clyde let an 'uuh' sound out while he searched for his phone in his pockets. He took it out and said the time out loud.

"9:26 right now, I'm up early." He stated and Craig rolled his eyes at him.

I'm worried about Craig. He always has a tired expression, like he barely sleeps at all. My sleeping schedule is kinda bad as well but at least I can sleep for 5 hours each night.

I hope our hang-out sessions will do us some good. I'm glad I asked him.

By the time we finished our breakfast, Jimmy and Token woke up. They ate and we chatted with them in the dining room. It was great, we had some laughs but my meds still didn't work. I got some random spikes during the day.

One moment I'm calm and tranquil, then I'm irritable and after an hour I want to die. There's no in between, sometimes I feel these things at the same time but.. with the same intensity.

"Tweek, wanna come smoke?" Craig said while everyone was doing the science homework.

I find it surprising that he asked, I guess he wants to talk. I need some nicotine in my body so I'll accept.

"Sure!" I exclaimed. He helped me up and handed me my jacket.

"You g-gu-guys shouldn't be smo-smoking." Jimmy said worriedly.

The other two looked up at us with a concerned face expression which made me sigh.

"Sorry, I'll try not to get addicted." I said while Craig just grunted.

We went outside and lit the cigs. I took a deep drag and felt myself relax. Craig did the same but I noticed he was looking at me very noticeably.

"U-um, do you wanna ask s-something?"

He exhaled and collected his thoughts. After some thinking he opened his mouth.

"Will this be our secret?"  He asked as he averted his eyes.

I smiled. "Yeah. How about we uh.. make a deal?"

"A deal?" He raised his eyebrows.

"You tell me everything and I tell you everything." I explained.

"Is this like a self-helping group thing?"  He said sarcastically. I nodded.

"Alright. That seems fair. But you can't tell anyone about this. I don't want idiots knowing about our condition."

"Of course.." He was very intimidating. "Same stands for you."

"Okay." He smiled and finished his cigarette. We both crushed our stubs and threw them out. I already feel a bit better about myself. I hope he does, too.