The same version of you

Chapter 4

"You think I also want this for you?! For myself?!" Loyd had never raised his voice at me. I was worried but I had to stand my ground. "I loved your brother Loyd and believe me I like you but being in a relationship with you is pushing it!".

It had been well over six months since I had last seen any of the Jones. I had started university. I was loving it. It had been such a difficult time, I was still grieving. I always felt I would grieve Bryan till I died as well. He was such an important part of me. I carried him everywhere I went. Sometimes I would have conversations with him and try to convince myself he was actually listening and understood. He almost always understood. That was the most beautiful part of him that I fell for.

I had a new friend, Gilmore. She was lovely. I hadn't told her I was nineteen and already had a dead lover. That would've been creepy, right? But she had to deal with working me up from dreadful nightmares almost every night. I always had dreams of how it was like when Bryan's plane crushed. Well atleast the way I had pictured it in my mind but it got horrific in the dreams. Poor girl! However, she swore she didnt mind. I loved her for that.

God knows why Loyd had disappeared for six months and decided to rock up at Campus to convince me to move in with him. Yes! He had the guts. I did know that Loyd lived in this part of the country when I had told Bryan that Brits University had accepted my application. We were so excited that he could be visiting his brother and get time to walk down to my campus. Now it seemed easy access for Loyd to just pitch there unannounced. The guts of that man!

"Okay how about this: Come over to my place tonight and we talk 'cause you dont wanna see reason and I gotta go back to work," He proposed. "I have study." He grew irritated, "I have work!" I glared at him. He had done it again. He had raised his voice at me. I saw him calm down and he sighed, "Listen Samira, I am trying here. If it wasn't for...." He looked distraught. "Please, okay. I'll bring you back to campus....Please."

A little frown had crossed his forehead. Had he done that before. For a second I thought it was sexy and.... No! It had been Bryan. Excuse me why would I find my boyfriend's brother sexy?.... He's dead, remember?... Whatever! "Fine.... Two hours tops," I stated. "That's all I need. I'll come pick you up at seven, " he concluded.
I could almost swear he had hesitated to lean over for a hug but he turned around and walked away....and when I turned around myself I saw the potential of my blood pressure skyrocketing.

Gilmore had this dangerous smile on her face and she wanted details and answers. I wasn't going to enjoy trying to shelve the issue.

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