Player (Grayson Dolan)

23 - I'm Handsome

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Emily
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"Well hello hello." A deep voice rung through my phone, and a smiling brunette sat on the other end of FaceTime as I sat up on my bed, 'friends' playing quietly in the background.

"Heyyy." I smiled and prolonged the 'y' in hey. Grayson running his fingers through his hair like he often does.

"Sooo. Last night I really wanted to go to the movies, and of course wanted to be accompanied by a beautiful girl." He winked and smirked through the camera "But the girl I wanted to go with was busy..." he gave me an over dramatic frowning face making me giggle. "So I'm asking her now." He ended it with a large smile, and I rolled my eyes at him, trying to hold in my smile.

"Oh what's she saying?" I teased sticking my tongue between my teeth as I smiled.

"Well she's being very cute, but also very sarcastic."

"Damn she sounds like a handful." I shrugged and giggled a little.

"She can be sometimes, but for the most part she's amazing in every way possible." He started smiling bigger as I covered my blush with a pillow.

"Stoooop." I covered my entire face with the pillow and he laughed loudly.

"So would you want to? I'm paying." He asked and I uncovered my face with the pillow looking at his eager expression.

"Yeah that'd be really nice Grayson, thank you." I smiled at his and watched him lick his lips, a pit forming in his stomach as we sat there awkwardly not saying anything.

"Alright I'll pick you up around 8?"

"What movie are we seeing?" I asked as I stood up and picked out an outfit to wear from my dresser.

"There was this scary movie I saw that looks really good even though I'm a little bitch and will probably hide my eyes the whole time." He laughed loudly which automatically made me smile. Something I always find myself doing when I talk to him.

"Okay sounds like a plan. But I'm really bored in my dorm right now so you should come over." I grabbed my outfit and set it on top of the dresser, then grabbed my phone and walked to my bed.

"Should I bring condoms?" I saw his eyebrow raise and I rolled my eyes, slightly giggling.

"Grayson, you know I'm not gonna have sex with you." I laid on my bed holding my phone in front of my face as I watched Grayson sigh.

"You still don't trust me, I get it."

"I am starting to trust you more, Gray, but I don't want that relationship again. I just want us to be friends. I can't handle going through that again."

"Okay, but I guess what I should ask is if you have feelings for me still." I felt myself struggle for words to find.

Of course I still have feelings for him. I'm crazy about him. And he can be a really amazing person at times. But he's so confusing. Why can't he just make up his mind? Why couldn't he just feel the same way? And why does he act like it'd make a difference if I liked him?

"I don't know anymore Grayson. It's hard to figure out where my mind is at sometimes."

"Sorry for bringing it up, I just don't know how to handle this. I want to be honest and tell you how I feel but I can't seem to articulate that. It's like I just forget how to talk."