My thoughts and stories// editing and revising

Moderating Friendships

Ok so in the last chapter I talked about moderating friendships, I have another few scenarios to talk about and they were too long and off topic to put on the other chapter.

There was also another scenario with this guy. So our school went to a play, and there were too many kids going so there was an overflow bus and me and this guy were both on it. We were acquaintances, if you could even call it that, so I don't know why I got so attached to trying to make like a friendship. Anyways, so we hung out most of the time and it was pretty fun. But there was another guy(guy 2) and people thought that we were together because he liked me and we're really good friends, but that's another story for later on, and so anyways we were also sitting together in the bus and guy 1 was more of an outsider I guess? But we were all hanging out on this field trip. So guy 2 doesn't know like what anything is so for some reason the word " pull" came up in the conversation for some reason so guy two asked what it was. So then guy one was like just wait I'll show you. So we got off the bus and I had forgotten about it because I thought he was going to just say some cheesy pick up line of something. So we get into the theater and I'm in the middle of these 2 guys and so then the first guy is like trying to put his arm around me, jokingly of course, and ya so eventually he stops and there's one point where he's like give me your hand, and I do and he holds it but only to show guy 2 who likes me how easy it is. And all of this was strictly platonic and I know this for sure because the girl he was dating, one of my good friends and how we know who eachother are, broke up with him. When he saw her he turned red and he was really depressed and sad when he talked about her. Also I know this because we haven't talked since. Here's why I'm saying all of this, when he did all of those things and when we were making jokes on the bus it was like the best day ever, it was also on a Friday so I was thinking about it all weekend. Then after we didn't talk I was upset and thinking about it for a whole week at least( honestly I'm still thinking about it, think I might like him). And the thing is there was no reason I should've been attached if that was our only actual time we hung out, I just get attached too easily. (And maybe because I'm such a hopeless romantic and so I can't be jokingly flirted with or I will fall for that person lol.)
Another scenario, so remember guy 2 the innocent one. So we are really good friends and we hang out all of the time, like every period we have together we hang out. Everyone started saying he liked me and I didn't believe it but then he told me he did and I told him I like him just a tad bit. I was really happy for about a week because no one else has liked me before. That kinda ruined our friendship because well I realized a few weeks later that I didn't actually like him, I just had that mindset from wattpad that I could grow to like him because people start out hating people in the books and end up together. Anyways we are growing farther apart and that may be my fault because I think I'm subconsciously pushing him away because I don't wanna tell him I don't like him. Also I think that excitement of having a guy friend because he was also the first one I'd ever had and so I got that confused with liking him. So ya that's also another reason why I need to learn to moderate friendships. It would also be hypocritical if I did date him even if I don't like him because that annoys me so much when people date other people just because they want a boyfriend or because they were asked out. Also a realization about him liking me, I think he also got those feelings confused because we are such close friends but he doesn't know it, he also doesn't really have that many friends who are girls. And he has liked my other good friend who broke up with guy 1 for about 5 years and she doesn't like him, but I still feel like he still likes her even if he thinks he doesn't.
And last scenario some other guy. He's totally unrelated in all of this but we are acquaintances at the most. But anyways we have this weird running game of tag and we have the same gym class and one day we were playing a game and I dropped the ball and he was like mad so he like picked me up and I was really shook for a second, but it was also fun. Anyways I liked him for like a day but then I got over it. So ya once again I get too attached to people too easily and one day it will be the death of me and my heart will be broken.

edit** this is like 2 years later and i'm laughing really hard if you're not too something is wrong.