My thoughts and stories// editing and revising

Ughh Idek Anymore

Ok so hi guys, aka nonexistent audience. Umm so back to my "mental health" right now I'm not happy or sad. The thing is I haven't been happy in so long I don't know if this is happiness or me being numb. I also worry that I'm subconsciously just trying to reach to have a mental issue which is terrible because some people have to deal with this and don't have a choice. Heck, people kill themselves because of this and I don't want to like romanticize mental illness. So I'm really confused and I really don't want to see a therapist because then I'd have to tell my mom and that'd make me really uncomfortable. And maybe that means nothing is really wrong with me and I'm just making stuff up so ya. Signing off as emotionally conflicted.