broken-hearted

s e v e n

"I don't love you anymore... " Lucas said as he looked into my eyes.

"Since when? " I asked, hiding in my eternal to this current situation. How could he-

"Now... just now. i don't wanna lie-so I'll see myself out the door-" "I won't let you. " I grabbed his waist and he looked away from me.

"John this isn't good for us. I can't keep lying to everyone around us because we're scared of criticism. Never. " who am I without him? Would I be the same John? Would I be mad sad John? Emotionless John.

"Please stay..." I couldn't get the words out fast enough and he was already out the door. I looked out seeing him run back to his rented car.

I looked down at the floor, he's happy. That's all that matters. Right? My feelings never matter it's always the other ones. When your in high school and a girl breaks up with her boyfriend they never care how he feels only hers matter.

I guess my feelings are better hidden lol. Cause they just don't matter.

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I frowned at the bad memory. The only one that still comes around in my head. The fact that I thought my feelings never mattered because when I told Evan what had happened he didn't care what he felt, he cared what I felt. How he broke my heart and I never got over it.

I probably won't be over it in my death bed: