Save me

Chapter IV

'What the hell just happened?' Yoongi yelped. Hoseok stared at the door like he was in a trance. Namjoon's jaw dropped, his mouth open wide. Jin grabbed Jimins hand. Tight. Very tight. Taehyung, he just stood there.

'So, should someone go get him?' Jimin suggested. Taehyung pushed Jimin out of the way, dashing out the door without answering.

Jungkook.

He wasn't alright. That face, the expression he made, it wasn't right. It wasn't Jungkook. Jungkook wouldn't make that face. Absent. Wan. Lacking. It was completely lifeless. Pale as a sheet of paper. The way the corner of his eyes crinkled, flooding with tears. Taehyung felt like his heart was stabbed with knives.

Jungkook.

Where was he? It was frightening, almost like a horror film. Everything was silent. No movements. Nothing. Taehyung turned and turned, ran and ran. Where was he?

Jungkook.

In the bathroom. Taehyung slowly creaked open the door. The sight he saw was horrendous.

Jungkook?

Taehyung felt like puking. Sure, he was happy he'd found Jungkook, but this Jungkook didn't look like Jungkook at all. His eyes were frozen over like the surface of a winter puddle. His face as pale as a ghost. Dried tears stuck to his face like glue. His head resting on the wall, face facing the ceiling. His mouth was stretched in a smile. Ironic. He looked so calm. Like something finally meant something or nothing at all.

Taehyung grabbed Jungkooks shoulder.

'Jungkook, please look at me.' Jungkook didn't respond at all. His eyes were glazed over. Desperation flooded Taehyung. Why wouldn't Jungkook answer? Come on, come on, come on. Taehyung felt himself panic. The blood pounded in his ears, his heart thudded in his chest. 

'Jungkook?' 'Jungkook?!' Taehyung yelled. His vision blurred with tears. Why was he panicking so much?

'It's ok.' Whispering, Jungkook looked up. He gazed at Taehyung and dried the tears away. 'Why are you crying?' Jungkook seized Taehyung and wrapped his arms around Taehyung. 'I'm fine.'

Taehyung pulled away. 'No, you're not.' A heavy silence dawned upon them.

'Come on, let's go.' Jungkook bolted upright and walked out of the toilet, leaving Taehyung alone in the toilet. Taehyung rushed out the door to catch up. He saw Jungkooks figure at the end of the hallway, turning the corner. Taehyung ran as fast as his legs could hold him, not really understanding why. He just had to get to Jungkook before he turned that corner.

Taehyung didn't make it. He didn't get to Jungkook in time. Jungkook was gone.

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Jungkook felt himself frowning. It had been close. Jungkook had almost spilled everything to Taehyung. If he had done so, what would Taehyung think of him? Would he turn around, and stop talking to him? Would he think he was a freak? An idiot? A person who wouldn't even be worth death? A person who wasn't worthy of anything? A disgusting, stupid, foul, sickening monster? Would he even care?

Jungkook stopped walking. He stared at his feet. Would they even care?

10 seconds past, and then 20 and 30. Pain started to boil inside him. It felt like a sharp-toothed creature eating his inside. Where was the other feeling? The good one. The one were he'd feel nothing. Jungkook thought of a world without him. A world where there wouldn't be these feelings. A place where everything was just gone. A bliss. Jungkook smiled. This was how it felt. Jungkook took a couple of deep breaths and started to walk again. Pain was just an illusory sensation that his mind could shut down if it needed to, he told himself over and over. He could always go back to this numb state if he wanted to.

Jungkook pushed the door open to the dance studio. The guys weren't there. They'd probably left him. No surprise. Jungkook turned the speaker button on. 'I'm fine' immediately echoed through the room. Ironic. Jungkook pushed the off button and sat down with a thump. He felt so weightless and anonymous, yet so heavy and known.

Taehyung burst into the room, the others following him. Jungkook turned around shocked. He bolted into an upright position and blinked his tears away. Taehyung reached him first. Jin took his hand. Jimin sprang onto him. Namjoon gently patted his head. Hoseok gave him a lollipop. Yoongi leaned in on him and said, 'Kid, you gave us quite the shock right there. Don't do that again, ok?'

Jungkook just nodded. He couldn't do anything else. He just nodded.

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Authors note:

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Btw, I'm sorry for not updating. It's been a bit of a hectic week. In the future, I'll try to update more frequently.

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