Save me

Chapter V

Jungkook felt complexed. His eyes flashed from his room to the sofa he was sitting on, never looking once at his hyungs. Jin was out buying them some drinks. The others were sitting around him. A heavy silence burned around them. Jungkook fuddled with his fingers and gnawed the inside of his cheek. His head buzzed with possibilities. Did Taehyung tell them? Did they find him strange? Would they think of him as a freak? 

Jin opened the door as he stepped into the dorm. Jungkook didn't dare to turn his head. He could feel Jin's gaze on him. He felt so small. Small, smaller, smallest. Jungkook felt like he could crumple together in a second. His heart leaped like a kangaroo when he felt a hand touch his shoulder. Jungkook turned his head so sharp, it might have broken. He stared, eyes wide, face to face with Jin. Jungkook jumped backwards and tried to run away. He was pulled back by a warm hug. 

'It's ok Kookie. Shhh- I'm here for you. We're here for you. Don't run away again, please. Just let your pain out. We're here for you' Taehyung whispered against Jungkooks neck. 

Jungkook couldn't stop the tears forming in his eyes. He felt his legs go wobbly. He couldn't lift his own weight. Jungkook slipped from Taehyungs grip, as he fell on to his knees. His hands covering his eyes, as if it was a crime to cry. His head hurt too much. Everything hurt so much. But his chest hurt the most. He didn't stop himself. He couldn't. 

'That's it. Just let it all out.' Taehyung wrapped his arms around Jungkook once more. Jungkook let his head fall on his shoulder. He held Taehyung as tight as he could, gripping his hyungs shirt as if he'd never let go. He didn't notice Jin whispering calming words to him, Yoongi making circles on his back, Jimin lightly patting his head, Namjoon getting a towel to dry the tears, Hoseok trying to give him a lollipop. 

Jungkook felt himself calm down. It felt so warm and nice. It was so comfortable. His eyes began to drift close. His eyelids weighed much more than gravity. His head became foggy. He was blissfully unaware of what was going on around him. His body leaned in on Taehyung totally limp. His breaths even and calm. The expression on his face no longer stressed but relaxed.

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Jungkook woke up, light blinding his eyes. He examined his surroundings. His hyungs were nowhere to be seen. He felt panic rising inside him. Did they leave him again? No, no, no, no, no. Jungkook dashed out of his bed, realizing he was still wearing the clothes from yesterday. He ran into the living room. A note lay on the table. It said, 'Kookie, we're out to pick some stuff, we'll be home soon. There's breakfast in the fridge, Jin made it. We already ate, so eat as much as you want.' They ate without him, but they probably didn't want to wake him up, so that was ok. Jungkook smiled thinking about the day before. He went over to the fridge and opened it. Pancakes. Yummy. Jungkook ate 3 whole pancakes with syrup. He decided to thank his hyungs for yesterday. He'd never felt better. 

Jungkook skipped over to the sink. He hummed as he washed his plates. He then sat on the couch and turned on the Tv. He watched an episode of Attack on Titan, an anime Taehyung liked. He heard the front door open. He jumped up from the sofa and ran over to his hyungs in the doorway. With the biggest smile, he exclaimed, 'Thanks for yesterday, hyungs.' 

Jin suddenly got this sullen look, Taehyung looked at him strangely. 'Jungkook, what do you mean?' 

'Yesterday, you guys told me you would be there for me. You told me to just let it all out. You cared about me. I was so happy! I was even allowed to fall asleep on Taehyung-hyungs shoulder. I just wanted to thank you for it.'

'Jungkook... That never happened.'