Red Lips//IT

Chapter 7

The song is below and the lyrics will appear in the story (hehe ^.^ ). 

One of these nights    By Red Velvet 

Thank you for all your support up to today! Have a nice day (and I guess procrastinating is my habit... I've procrastinated this chapter too! Sorrryyyy) !

- wonderlust_star

dream. 

I tucked her under the blanket covers and stroked her hair. Her plump lips pursed in like a cat's and puffed out. She smacked them together unconsciously in her sleep, her cheeks inflating again. I wanted to touch them so bad but I held back. She should rest, too. Looking at her as time passed slower than imaginable, I kept on fearing and wondering how she'd feel watching this ugly face. This clown with red lips and cracked makeup. Was it an inferiority complex? Was it fear of not being good enough for her? My heart stung as I watched her sleep in peace. I sighed, turning around and about to stand up, disappointed by myself. Then, she grabbed my wrist, her eyes still closed and peaceful. Her voice mumbled, 

" The story, the day I stopped.

I think I've lost you more than I've loved you.

Over the stars and skies, in a far place

I'm walking, walking over our memories.
...

It's okay even if it's a dream."

She mumbled away part of a song that I'd first heard from her. I knew that, even if it was a dream, it was all true. "I'm sorry," I mumbled as I heaved myself up. My feet turned unwillingly, and they started walking away on its' own. I'm sorry, I repeated in my head, and I stepped back again and again. 

Sorry. 

my fear was only one thing. that she would be unhappy. After all those years that I'd looked for fear, I realized that my fear, too, would take me up inside. My fear, too, had controlled me and I had to be stronger than fear to stop myself from devouring this fear. Eating up my own fear, 

my fear of seeing her unhappy. I had to take the form of what I wasn't afraid of, just for her and only her.  

That's why I took form as a human. So she could go with me anywhere and everywhere. So we could never separate and her fear of going away from me. I couldn't be a burden anymore; not a burden that came along with fear. Not a burden to those who feared. Fear, was just part of everyone, and without fear, I'll never learn to defeat it. I'll never know the feeling of worry or the urge to go past. I'd just stay the same without fear and all along, I never realized I had a fear, too.  

"I love you," I whispered to her ear and smiled the clown smile for the last time. 

After a few hours, Kassy woke up to the stereo that I turned on that morning. Rubbing her eyes, she pulled herself up and hugged the polar bear patterned blanket. She fell back down, only to sleep again. I (Bill Skarsgard... ayyyye) climbed on top of her and I hugged her tight. Real tight. 

Kassy POV

I wasn't going to open my eyes. There was a stranger hugging, I mean strangling me. What was I saying, I'm crazy. I peeked through, opening my eyelids ever so slightly and I swear, I've seen him before... but I didn't? 

But, seriously, this man won't budge. His face was buried in my shoulder, and he hugged me from the back. There was this feeling that this was the same hug that Pennywise would have given me. But I had already caught a glimpse of his face. He was not Pennywise. 

'What are you wondering?'