Collide / David Dobrik

10 / Secrets

Eventually, David left (after Caroline insisted it was fine if he went home) so Caroline could have some time to herself. David walked into his house and threw his keys and phone on the entry way table, sitting at his counter and putting his head in his hands. His mind raced, and the next thing he knew he had punched the wall next to him. He came back to his senses when he looked down at his already bleeding and throbbing hand. The wave of anger he had felt scared the shit out of him. He was not an angry person, and very rarely even felt any anger at all, especially not a blind blackout-level rage. He walked into his bathroom and washed off his hand gently, wrapping it with a bandage he found in a first aid kit and putting a bag of ice on it. His phone buzzed and he looked down at it. It was a text from Caroline.

Caroline: Thank you for making me talk about it

David looked down at his swelling hand and called Alex.

"David, what's up?"

"Can you come over?"

"To film?"

"No"

"Ummm.... yeah, I'll be over in an hour"

"Ok"

"Are you... ok?"

"No"

David hung up the phone. Hardly 20 minutes later, Alex walked into David's house.

"What... David, what happened to your hand?"

"I punched the wall"

"Why?"

"I ruined her whole fucking life" David said, looking at the bandage, stained with blood.

"David what the fuck are you talking about? Liza's fine"

"Not Liza"

"David..." Alex started. "Who the fuck are you talking about?"

"Caroline"

"Caroline? Like, Caroline Hill?"

"Yes"

"You broke up years ago?"

"I left her"

"I mean, you broke up... What are you getting at here?"

David breathed in and looked at Alex.

"I got Caroline pregnant in June of 2015"

"Wait, hold on, what? Like, when we were living together"

"Yeah"

"She had an abortion?"

"No, she had a miscarriage. And I left her 3 days later"

"EXCUSE ME?"

"She has avoided me and talking about it for 3 years and I went to her house today to talk to her about it and she fucking forgave me and now i'm spiraling"

"What the fuck, David? What do you fucking mean you left her? What happened?"

"We were dating for like, a year, then we found out she was pregnant and she decided not to have an abortion. I got so fucking up in my head picturing this life with her and this fucking baby and then when we lost it. I don't know what the fuck I was thinking but it fucked me up so much"

"How far along was she?"

"Only 9 weeks. Not even that far"

"David, what do you mean you left her?" Alex asked more firmly this time.

"I couldn't even look at her. I was so up in my head about being a family that when we lost the baby, which wasn't even a fucking baby yet, it ruined the whole thing in my head so I left"

Alex looked David straight in the eyes before punching him square in the face. David recoiled, holding his nose which was now spewing blood. David looked at Alex whose face was absolutely devoid of emotion.

"You fucking deserved that" Alex said. "You deserve more than that. I should fucking kill you"

"I know" David said.

The two were silent before Alex sat back on David's couch.

"I never ever would have expected that you would do that to anyone, especially someone you supposedly loved that much. That is fucking horrible"

"She was so fucking cool. She was really passionate and bubbly and one of the funniest people I knew. She's.... really different now, and according to her friends it started after I left. I literally ruined her life" David said, grabbing paper towels from his kitchen and pressing them on his face.

"And she forgave you?!"

"Yes, and she told Sam who didn't know the entire time. She didn't even tell her best friend for 3 years"

Alex was silent, staring out the glass doors in David's living room.

"She stopped talking to me when you stopped dating her" Alex said. "I never even asked why you guys broke up, and I should have asked and fucking moved out. I cannot believe i'm even friends with you"

David sat on the couch next to Alex, not saying a word.

"I never should have left her" David said.

"Well, you did, David"

They sat in silence for a little longer before Alex spoke.

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah, even if it's broken I don't care"

"I don't mean your nose"

"Oh, I... not really"

Alex nodded and walked straight out of David's house.

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I'm gonna give all my secrets away

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Idk why the drama queen in me just... popped out for this book but here I am!!!