Collide / David Dobrik

21 / The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

A little less than a month had passed since David's bar incident, and the two had been speaking a bit more regularly, albeit not often. This week was different, though. After both being invited to the VMAs through youtube, David and Caroline, along with other youtubers, had been flown to New York City for the week to attend events leading up to the show to promote it.

The first night, youtubers went to a bar after attending a mandatory event.

Caroline looked past Jenn to see David sitting next to a girl in a booth. The girl was practically sitting on top of him, laughing at every word he said. She looked back at Jenn and smiled, continuing the conversation. Jenn hadn't noticed (or maybe had noticed and hadn't cared about) what was going on behind her. Caroline looked back a few minutes later and watched the girl grab David's face and start kissing him. She turned her attention away and focused it completely on Jenn. They kept chatting for a while before Caroline went back up to the bar to get another drink. As she was returning, David came over to her.

"I can't fake this anymore" He said.

"What?" Caroline asked, looking past him at the girl who was now sitting in the booth alone.

"I can't keep pretending I want to kiss people I don't want to kiss"

He put his hand behind her on the wall behind Caroline.

"So why don't you just kiss who you want to kiss?" Caroline asked, a bit confused.

"Ok" David said, leaning in and pressing his lips against hers.

Caroline was shocked at first, then kissed back. Suddenly, everything in the room melted away and Caroline was completely focused on kissing David. He was doing the same thing. Caroline ran her fingers through David's hair, wishing they weren't in a club. The music changed, and slowed a bit from the heavy bass that had been evident before.

In my head, I play a supercut of us... all the magic we gave off... all the love we had and lost...

In my head, the visions never stop... but when I reach for you... there's just a supercut

David listened to the lyrics a bit as he pulled apart from Caroline.

"Do you want to get out of here?" He asked, laughing a little.

Caroline scanned the room for her friends, who were far away and around a corner from where she had been kissing David. They had seen nothing. She felt her head rush as she smiled a little at David and nodded.

In my head, in my head I do everything right... when you call I'll forgive and not fight... because ours are the moments I play in the dark... we were wild and fluorescent come home to my heart

The music played as David took Caroline's hand and led her out of the bar. He flagged down a taxi, thanking God that his uber rating wasn't going to go down for what he was about to do. Caroline and David continued making out in the back of the taxi, who seemed completely unphased. After all, it was New York. They arrived at the hotel, going up to David's room. David thanked God that he had booked his own room instead of taking the shared room he had been offered. As soon as they entered the room, they continued making out, walking backwards towards the bed. David began to unzip Caroline's dress.

"Is this ok?" He asked.

"Yes" Caroline nodded.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes" Caroline laughed.

They continued to make out, and Caroline paused to put music on. They continued making out for a while, eventually doing something Caroline hadn't done since she was dating David.

"So... what are we?" David asked jokingly when they were done, propping his head up on his elbow.

Caroline ignored him, rolling her eyes and looking up at the ceiling. David listened to the music playing.

I'm in the corner, watch you kiss her, I'm right over here, why can't you see me?

"Jesus" David laughed at the lyrics. "This feels relevant"

"This, this is a good one" Caroline said, laughing and pointing towards her phone, ignoring David's comment yet again. "Can I be honest?"

David nodded.

"I have so many songs that remind me of us"

David raised his eyebrows.

"Please, do share"

"Supercut, the song that was playing at the bar felt like it made sense at the time" Caroline said. "The John Wayne by Little Green Cars"

"How does that one go?"

Caroline rolled over and grabbed her phone, putting the song on.

It's easy to fall in love, it's easy to be alone, it's easy to hate yourself, when all your love is inside someone else

"CHRIST" David said.

"Sorry, is this getting too painful?" Caroline laughed.

"No, is this theraputic for you?" He asked, furrowing his brows and tilting his head while smiling a bit.

"A little" Caroline nodded and laughed.

"I have a song that reminds me of you" David said.

"Please do share" She mimicked.

"It's from my fall out boy-ish phase, don't judge too hard"

David took Caroline's phone and played a song.

If it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again, and you can tell me how vile I already know that I am

Caroline frowned a little, listening to the rest.

Call me a safe bet, i'm betting i'm not, i'm glad that you can forgive only hoping as time goes you can forget

"This reminds you of me?" Caroline asked, a bit softer than usual.

"Especially recently" David said, laying on his back and closing his eyes.

If it makes you less sad i'll take your pictures all down, every picture you paint I will paint myself out... it's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds

"This is so sad" Caroline said, a few tears escaping her eye as she laughed. "You win"

"Don't cry" David laughed. "You're too good of a person"

"I just don't think I realized that you regretted anything until the past few months"

"You didn't think I regretted that?"

"Why would I think you regretted it? You haven't spoken to me since, you started dating someone new, your life didn't stop. You seemed so happy. You had millions of fans and a beautiful girlfriend and a tight-knit friend group, you bought your dream car and house and are living the life that you used to talk about wanting. Why would I think you regretted breaking up with me?"

David was quiet.

"I would trade all of that to go back and never leave your side. Not even for a second"

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You are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins

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One of my fav chapters i've written, I hope you enjoyed... this song is also lyrically heartbreaking so check that out hahaha... again shoutout to my brother for introducing me to this song back in the day